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Never Bow Down. (Failure In Denial)

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Invoking

Published: Dec 27, 2012

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Your poisoned words are your weapon of choice,
Paralyzing me with just the sound of your voice.
Whispering your lies and getting under my skin,
But I can see right through you 'cause you're so paper thin!

Are you really so heartless?
Behind your lies is there any truth?
Can you tell I don't want this!?
I will never bow down to you!

You say across my skin is where my short comings compile,
And that my scars remind you I'm a failure in denial!
No matter what you've always had the upper hand,
Holding me under for reasons none understand!

GOD DAMN!!

Are you really so heartless?
Behind your lies is there any truth?
Can you tell I don't want this!?
And that I'll never
Bow
Down
To
You!

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"You're just a failure in denial" - Words directed toward me from a specific member of my family.

That hurt... that hurt me deep...
I -refuse- to believe that. I am not a failure. I- I'm not in denial...

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*EDIT 12/28/12*
I simply cannot find the words to reply to each of your comments. It really warms my heart, though, to know that the dA community has my back. Thank you all who faved and commented your highly encouraging words <3

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Farelle

Jan 21, 2017

never bow down! is, I think the right thing to do. I lived by that principle my whole life and it helped me to overcome alot of difficulties in my life...and I'm glad I did, because I'm slowly coming to a point where I stop being bothered by hearing their voices in my head and they slowly calm down.

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