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If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine
Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears
Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home
I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes
Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…
Tears to RainWhen you cry
I'll pick up the pieces
Here's my heart
I want you to keep this
So you'll be fine
Let me take the fall
It's only just begun
It only hurts just once
I'll shield you from the pain
Till all the tears you cry turn to rain...
Every word I speak is true...
Every single 'I love you...'
Love is Just a Word Until Someone Comes Along...Lay awake, I'm robbed of sleep
I hear the raindrops tap the street
Forgetting all I've fallen for, I can't go on
I can't be more
Hidden behind tapestries
Adorned with painful memories
Slowly realize what you've done, I've lost it all
I've come undone
A fallen angel at your feet
A broken mess at your mercy
Heartless in my time of need, you walked away
You watched me bleed
Holding out for fate unknown
A missing piece, an empty home
Living life with no one there, I know I'm lost
But I don't care
Within the boundaries of myself
Crying out for someone's help
Wishing for, with all my heart
They'll stop the pain and light the dark
A fallen angel at my feet
Broken, shattered just like me
I take her hand and grip it tight
We'll last forever in the light
Savior.I have this darkness deep inside me,
It's what influenced this writing.
I can't control it, I can't fight it,
Barely know it, and can't hide it.
I'm just a mess with no ambition;
So much less than I envisioned.
How much more can I endure?
I don't know, I'm not too sure...
I'm not myself when I'm alone,
And yet I find I'm on my own.
I'm like a lock without a key,
There is no perfect fit for me!...
You're not alone.
Don't think like that.
Pick your head up.
I believe in you.
You can do it.
I love you...
Are you here to prove me wrong?
To make me see the brighter dawn?
With this darker side, this part of me,
How can you love someone like me?
I don't care, I'm glad you do...
Where would I be if it weren't for you?
You pulled me through the worst of times,
I never thought I'd call you mine...
Yes, I'm a mess, but this mess is forever yours.
Together we can unlock and open up these remaining doors.
And I'm not backing down as long as you're by my side...
Hold on to my hand and we'l
Part Mirage, Part NightmareI try to fight, the feelings I, hide inside
And the piosonus thoughts they bring
But darling, they're all that's left
They're all of you, that I've kept
You're still all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, that I believe
But when you're gone
My heart threatens to collapse
Because it's broken in two
And it's missing its other half
Please don't leave, please stay with me...
I can't breathe...
I'm on the edge of insanity...
Part mirage, part nightmare...
Please come back!
I just need to know you're there...
I know that I've, said I'm fine
That everything, is alright
But darling, I miss the feeling
Of your lips, gently caressing mine
I miss your touch, I miss your laugh
I miss so much, that I know that I can't have
'Cause when you're gone
My heart beats are few
It's broken in two
And so empty now without you
Where have you gone? Are you coming back?
I can't go on...
My vision has faded to black...
Part mirage, part nightmare...
Please come back!
Hurts Like HeavenOh. My.
God, it hurts like heaven;
Longing for all your affection,
Every bit of your attention,
You're a divine intervention.
In this life that's turned to hell.
I can't help it when I reminisce,
In moments that are just like this,
I remember when we had our kiss,
And now how much I really miss,
The times when we weren't separated,
Were the best memories that I've created,
To reunite is long awaited,
I feel like I'm incarcerated,
In my own personal hell.
I can't help it when I think of you...
I hope one day we'll say "I do."
But for now I have to struggle through,
Until the day I get to you...
It won't be long, love, I know we'll be fine...
So, darling, stay strong and keep your hand held in mine...
I'll never let you go and I'll always make amends...
I'll hold on to you forever, or until forever ends...
One More Mistake.With every word that I say
With every smile I fake
Every moment I live
I'm making one more mistake...
All the tears that I've cried
Have fallen unnoticed
No matter how hard I try
Nobody will know this...
Every friend that I've made
Everything I create
With every door that I open
I'm making one more mistake...
I hate what I've done
And this person that I've become
I hate these scars on my wrist
Is there no ending to this...?
With every beat of my heart
With every breath that I take
Every day I wake up
Is just another mistake...
IncreasingI don't like pain
I hate the way my scissors sting
I don't care for the way blood sticks to my wrists
The cotton itching against my opened skin
But I do like the feeling
The way I slump to the floor in reilef
My ignorance of the depth increasing
I don't like the pain
But I do love the feeling
The progress of the depth increasing
God, I love the feeling
Of the only peace I've known
That embrace that I have,
It may be the only one
The calming voice of skin splitting
The gentle smile of blood on silver
The only feeling of love I know
As the depth's increasing
Please come back
I am not all right
The one thing I know
Is that the stars don't always shine that bright
And the moon doesn't always has it's pretty glow.
Life isn't just rainbows and butterflies
There isn't always someone to hold
Sometimes your eye cries
And a new story will unfold
The day I lost you
I don't even remember what I got into
But is wasn't pretty, it wasn't fine
And I'm quite sure I couldn't walk a straight line
I miss you so bad
You're the one that got away
The best thing I never had.
You didn't care to stay
Now I'm speechless
Babe, I have to confess
The day you realise you actually want this
I'll probably take you back with just a kiss
You Broke Her DownThis isn't want she wanted,
This isn't how she wanted to feel.
You've done it now,
You sent her over the edge,
And she just can't handle it.
You broke her down,
And she crumbled to the ground.
All she wants to do is die,
All she wants is to not feel pain.
How could you?
You knew she could break,
You knew how vulnerable she was,
So why did you do it?
Why tear her a part?
She needed you the most,
But all you did was leave her in the dust.
Good MorningGood Morning.
I have a distressing tendency of waking up too early.
The sun escaping from the blinds always begins to stir me.
Just as I begin to behave sullen and surly, her presence averts me.
I turn to my side to see the vein in her left arm pump overtly.
She's completely immersed by the covers.
I have to resist temptation not to hold and hug her.
Her body suddenly moves with a spontaneous shudder.
Her mouth moves but not a word or sound does she utter.
I stare at her intently and push her stray hairs behind her ear.
Realising that loosing this woman will be my most dreadful fear.
Her eyes momentarily open just to make sure that I am near.
I was born alone in this world but I live my life in a pair.
She has no idea that I watch her while she sleeps.
Or that I tingle when her newly painted toes brush against my feet.
I often think what my life would be like if me and her didn't meet.
Would she even look twice if we crossed paths in the street.
Her hands move against the pillow as if
Emotional Mind vs. SubconciousHe cares (or so he says)
He'll be there (what if he isn't?)
He'll protect me (he'll hurt you instead)
You're visible to him (no, invisible, just like everyone else)
He'll never lie (he lies to you daily)
He's never tricked me (everything is a trick when it comes to him)
He hugs me (an obligation, just so he can hurt you EVEN more)
He wants me happy (just so he can cause you MORE pain)
He looks out for me (only because he should)
He Cares About ME (or so you think )
He Loves Me ( He'll break your heart)
Don't Let GoRestrained by insecurity, she is hard to love.
Her heart however, hides a passion unknown.
An unforeseen utopia, and still so much more.
The problem, huge hearts make easy targets.
The strategy is simple though, easy to learn.
Follow this formula and you'll find your forever.
Hold her tight through all of the happy times,
and the fighting and the anger, don't let go.
If you feel her falling take her hand in yours.
When you feel like she is letting go, catch her.
Protect her with your arms when she is scared.
When she is sad, especially then, don't let go.
Don't let her walk away, even if she wants to.
Bravery is an act, nobody wants to be alone.
It will take work, but the reward is her heart.
And she will treasure you, but don't ever let go.
Don't Go"Don't go…" There are few words more powerful. I watched my best friend as her very soul shattered. She kept saying it. Yelling it. Desperately begging.
"Don't go! Don't go! Don't go!" She screamed, her voice breaking as she plead. The agony poured down her face, tears blending with the rain. Her beloved weakly placed a hand on her cheek. He smiled through his pain, a hole torn right through the middle of his life. He whispered to her. I could barely make out his words above the sound of the rain against the leaves.
"Its alright." He said. His voice, somehow steady, "Come here."
She swallowed hard and gently lay her head on his chest. I leveled my rifle and scanned the area again. The last of our enemies lay dead at my feet. Above the rain I heard my dying friend's voice singing softly. One last song for the woman he loved.
"You are my sunshine… my only sunshine… you make me happy… when skies are grey." His voice barely held the notes as it gave way to the v
Forget MeQuietly you forget me
I'll slip away
Untwine my fingers from your warm hands
I was too late
I told you
I loved you
Just not how much
So now there's nothing left to do but watch you
And find solace in your peace
I'll take back my bags from you
I'll shoulder them myself
I'll do what people do
I'll play a sad song
And have a drink in your name
Maybe strike a match and burn your picure
Through my bitter sobs and angry tears
I'll close my eyes and think of you
And your smile
Those odd things you'd try to hide so desperately
Those things that made you so real to me
I'll find that there is someone like you in my life, once more
But I loved you for all the wrong reasons
I only wanted you because you made me want someone
I ached for you only because I didn't ache anymore
I was an idiot for feeling so happy
I wasn't worth the effort
And now you are not worth my time
I'm going to sit back
As I let you forget me
Intoxicated EncounterSomething was different that day, I knew it because he actually asked how I was doing. Turning away from him, towards the kitchen counter I concentrated on the vegetable I was busy chopping up and coldly replied that I was fine. Everything had been cold between us, for months.
He walked up behind me and put his hands on my shoulders, pressing his body against mine and I began to shake. Running his right hand through my hair, he leaned in and whispered "I miss you" into my left ear.
"I am right here" I replied and bit my lip to fight back the tears and the anger and the heartbreak and the love, everything I felt all at once. Steadying my shaking hands, I took a deep breath and continued "I am right here and just trying hard not to cut my finger like I did last time I used this knife."
He gently reached for my hand and took the knife from my grip lying it on the counter in front of me. I turned around to face him and he looked into m
These FlamesI find, the flames attractive
As I watch this city burn away
So close, I almost had it
I lost it all when I turned away
My heart is full of broken dreams
Shattered hopes and memories
Everything that causes pain
Like a drop of acidic rain
The wind blows and it carries with it
Whispered words and the sorrows hidden
Sanctuary among the ashes
But the arson has one more match lit
And I find, the flames attractive
As I watch this city burn away
Was so close, I almost had it
I lost it all when you turned away
I regret every single moment
Without you with your hand in mine
I regret never even knowing
You loved me the entire time
And I find, these flames attractive
Burning brightly, shining in your eyes
I'm right here, and I finally have you
And from the ashes we'll rebuild our lives...
Poetic PsychosisIn thirty seconds, the next shell would fall. Every night was the same, but every night Lorenzo experienced it as if it were the first time. His throat felt swollen; breathing was hard. He glanced around at the others; young men like him who had been shipped out in the name of honour and freedom. There was no honour in this, no freedom. Only death behind your eyelids, and a fear so gutting, that it carved out your innards and left you a hollow husk. Lorenzo tried to breathe, tried to assure himself that he was still whole, still made of flesh. They had lied when they told him he was ready.
Matteo ran towards him, arms out, rifle swinging uselessly at his side. He shouted for him to run, but Lorenzo remained motionless, unable to move as his friend’s warning was lost in the constant blare of gunfire. None of them were ready.
“The cycle is repeating. It is not safe.” The voice was soft and weak, yet it carried over the gunfire and battle cries without impediment.
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