I never did look, so I never did question,
Your riddled with guilt and unspoken confessions.
Making the effort to push on mile after mile,
Feeling your knife in my back all the while!
I had always thought that you were a part of me!
Now I can't stand the thought of you and I'll never be sorry.
I still just can't believe I let you happen to me!
The thoughts are so maddening and chip away at my sanity...
When you told me I was nothing time itself seemed to have frozen,
And when it finally thawed I found myself somehow more broken!
The pain is so hard to stop; it keeps coming in stronger waves...
I fell down from the very top and right into my open grave!
And you saved me?! Just to break me again?!?!
Why couldn't you let this go so this could finally end?!
I'm so tired of all the thoughts and all the voices in my head!
I hate the whispered words that should never have been said!
You couldn't have really meant it when you wished that I was dead!
I've fallen to the floor, and I'm coughing
I can't breathe, I can't be any more
Just let me die, lay me down in my coffin
This is me, I'm just broken to the core
Crimson tears are like liquid fire
Raise the flames just a little higher
And I'll burn on top of the pyre
Let me bleed and hush the choir!
What a mess, I'm such a waste
Of peoples time and someones space
And all the problems that I face
Why can't they all just go away?!
All these wounds that I bear will eventually scar
Then new ones will cover where the old ones are
I absolutely hate this is the way it will always be
You think the price I pay to be alive is anything near FREE?!