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Just Let Me DieLet me die with dignity
It's the least that you could do
I dug this grave for me
But you can lay here too

And, no, it's not your fault
You don't have to say goodbye
This blood is on my hands
So don't you even try

I can't get a fresh breath
Your words hanging in the air
As still as certain death
But they're getting us nowhere

And you'll cry your last tear
As we lie here in waiting
Just to be forgotten
Our memory fading

Our lips press together
In one final kiss
Our one final effort
To re-right our sins

And it's here we'll die together
Just broken memories
We don't have to wait forever
To hear the angels sing

But still I
Emotionless KissIt's not like I can even fight it so why do I still attempt..
To drag myself out of my self created lament..?
I tried to make things right but I can't force out your repent...
You're standing right next to me so why do you feel so distant?!

I only wish
To take your hand
Pull you in close
And do everything that I can

To keep you
I wanted to make you mine
Though I waited and waited
You never gave me a sign

It's not like I try to hide it so why is it that you ignore me?
I've got no one to confide in and you won't even reassure me...
Maybe when I'm gone you'll finally start missing me...
It's strange that when I'm dead how you'll f
Broken FramesIn the morning when my eyes first open
Will you be there or will I be alone
Cause I hate that you left me still broken
To fend for myself still all on my own

Reflections are marred with cracks and scratches
Nothing remains but remnants of our trust
And how nothing else ever attatches
You have to let go and this is a must

Even if we were to try to repair
Nothing could fix this not after that fall
I know you do when you say you don't care
Maybe it's best you say nothing at all

Get on your knees and stop playing these games
You'll see what I see behind broken frames
Without YouOpen my eyes, to one more day of life
(I'm just slipping through)
But I don't try to do much more than survive
(It's pointless without you)
Just one more time, I'd like to say you're mine
(And let it be true)
I can't escape, this tormented fate, not without you

Now I'm searching
But my eyes are blind
There's nobody here
There's nothing to find

And I'm left standing
Broken in tears
My heart is gone
I'm losing my mind

I've always hated myself, and wished I didn't exist
(I know I'm imperfect)
Let myself be decieved, by the taste of your kiss
(Was this really worth it?)
On my wrist, another scar laid to rest on my skin
(Do the
One More Mistake.With every word that I say
With every smile I fake
Every moment I live
I'm making one more mistake...

All the tears that I've cried
Have fallen unnoticed
No matter how hard I try
Nobody will know this...

Every friend that I've made
Everything I create
With every door that I open
I'm making one more mistake...

I hate what I've done
And this person that I've become
I hate these scars on my wrist
Is there no ending to this...?

With every beat of my heart
With every breath that I take
Every day I wake up
Is just another mistake...
All for youWhat I wouldn't give
to look into your eyes,
to be at your side,
to be happy all our lives,
nothing to extravagant.

Being around you,
hearing your voice,
feeling your heart beat,
curling up to you, so comfy.
It's all you have to do,
it's you who makes me so happy.

But, of course, this can't be,
not until everything is ready,
until we have a place, only you and me,
until then our sides stay empty,
until we can be together again, so happy.

I hate this distance between us.
I wish I could just drop it all and run,
run to the one who feels so right,
the one who I want to make smile,
and give everything to, for a happy life.

I
Tonight.I swear I'm trying to hold on,
But I know I'm losing the fight,
I just want it all to be gone,
I want that tonight.

I can't keep this fake smile,
Any longer upon my face,
I'll let it slip for a while,
I'll hide out in this place.

Somewhere in-between death and life,
Feel the cold spreading through,
As for the final time I drop the knife.
This time the rumours will be true.

Of how she took her sorry life,
Cut it short and disappeared,
Escaped the trouble and the strife,
She was more fucked up than we first feared.

Now she is gone far away,
Another name upon the list,
The memories of her will soon stray,
The fuck up girl will
The Person I Once KnewThe Person I Once Knew

We used to talk everyday.
Laughing, talking and spending time together.
I never thought me and you would stray.
I assumed we would be this close forever.

Now your number is never in use.
You're just a photo in my frame of mind.
It went from mutual respect to absolute abuse.
A bond like ours is difficult to find.

I occasionally think of you and wonder how your doing.
Wonder what you look like and if you still talk the same.
Imagine what your doing with life and what dreams you are pursuing.
Despite everything that happened my memories of you will always remain.

I knew you for a while and you made an impact
more than loving you.How am I supposed to write a whole poem about three words?
I could say how I'm confused, but I'm not.
I could say how my heart is broken, but it's not.
I could talk about how great our relationship is, but it's not.

I am not confused. I know who I want to say this to, and darling that is you.
My heart is not broken yet. It clings on to a shred of hope.
Our relationship, it's nonexistent.

There is nothing more simple than the fact that I love you.
And it's because I love you, that I will forget that feeling of love.
I'll stop this yearning, this passion.
I'll hide it away deep in my heart and blink away the tears of pain,
that come
To be with youI want to be with you now,
I've never felt this way.
You're the one i want every day,
the one who can make me smile
just by being here.
I don't need things, or fun,
just having you here is enough.

Yes, I still have my fears,
But it's only a small part.
I know you're not like them.
You won't break my heart,
you promise you'll return,
you need things to fall into place
before we can be together always,
You made that promise to me,
and I'm hoping it's one you'll keep.

You understand me better than anyone,
Your the closest anyone has come.
I just want this waiting to be done.
I want to be your only one,
I want to make you the
Waking UpI wake up again in the middle of the night
Cold sweat dripping I don't know if I'm alright
Cause it's the millionth time
That I've dreamt you were mine

But now I see
It's only me
With no one else
I'm by myself...

I can hear my heartbeat echo off these walls
As I wander aimlessly through these desolate halls
I keep thinking that I'm hearing your desperate call
But that's just me pretending trying so hard not to fall

I listen to the wind as it whispers by me
But the words that it speaks aren't registering
I listen to the rain as it pours to the ground
I'm looking for you but you're nowhere around

I really fucking hate being alon
Something More...You stole every one of my dreams and left me all on my own!
But you can't take all this pain 'cause it's all that I've ever known!
If only I could've noticed that you were changing long before!
Maybe it's just me but I thought we were something more!

I thought you'd be the one that would actually fucking care!
And even though you said you'd be, you're still not even there!
I've always felt like I was living without a purpose!
Thanks for being the one to help confirm that I'm worthless!

Losing you is the worst pain that I could endure!
Please show some kind of mercy 'cause I can't take it anymore!
How many more times can you pick me
PillsAm I made of matter?
They fill me with this
charmed poison--
swallow, three, four,
one mistake means
another,
and they wonder why I freeze.
I'm not unsure of who I am.
I'm unsure if I am

matter

or

medicine
I Never Meant to Hurt YouHe told me he loved me
then gave me his heart
When I didn't even know
I had it from the start

He told me to keep it safe
don't break it
But I don't even want it
I can't take it

I'm clumsy
A klutz
everything I touch breaks
So what exception is your heart
to my personality trait?

It's you heart
And I'm not the one to trust
I don't want to hurt you
But I will if I must
I'm not worth the trouble
and never the pain
And I think it would be better
if we stayed simple and plain
because I know it's true
How I feel about you
And I didn't have the intention
of ever hurting you.....
Where Is The Light?Where is the light that you promised to me?!
I thought it was clear that I needed you here!
I feel so alone, so lost and confused...
I'm stumbling blindly, don't know what to do!

Where is the light that stopped all of my tears?
I stay up all night 'cause I can't sleep with these fears...
Where are you now that I'm falling apart?!
You left nothing here but this hole in my heart!

Where is the light when I need it the most..?
Why did it leave and where did it go?
What did I do to lose all that I've known...?
How can I live when I've lost all my hope?!

Maybe it's me who has misunderstood!
If I could fix my mistakes then believe me I
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Adorned with painful memories
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Living life with no one there, I know I'm lost
But I don't care

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Wishing for, with all my heart
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These FlamesI find, the flames attractive
As I watch this city burn away
So close, I almost had it
I lost it all when I turned away

My heart is full of broken dreams
Shattered hopes and memories
Everything that causes pain
Like a drop of acidic rain

The wind blows and it carries with it
Whispered words and the sorrows hidden
Sanctuary among the ashes
But the arson has one more match lit

And I find, the flames attractive
As I watch this city burn away
Was so close, I almost had it
I lost it all when you turned away

I regret every single moment
Without you with your hand in mine
I regret never even knowing
You loved me the entire time

A
Tears to RainWhen you cry
I'll pick up the pieces
Here's my heart
I want you to keep this
So you'll be fine
Let me take the fall
For you...

It's only just begun
It only hurts just once
I'll shield you from the pain
Till all the tears you cry turn to rain...

Every word I speak is true...
Every single 'I love you...'

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Is this all I am to you?
Just something to lose?
Someone to hurt?
To hit and abuse?

Not physically
For that would leave marks
Not even mentally
You go straight for the heart

Like a waterfall cascading
It won't ever stop
I'll be here still waiting
Or so I once thought

I can never fight this feeling
But I can't help that it's here
Maybe it'd be best
If I could just disappear...

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Something To Lose.by ~Invoking

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Maybe it'd be best
If I could just disappear...

Somedays, that's all I want...
©2012-2013 ~Invoking
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~NoOneKnowsWhereToGo Jan 27, 2013  Hobbyist
I actually went through something like this with my used to be best friend about 2 years ago, it still bothers me. I don't understand why people that used to be so nice to you and talk to you everyday can just decide to make you feel like shit, especially since most of it is lies. Most of the time I feel like it would be better if I did disappear... At least I can talk to you if I stay :3 In case you're wondering after that day I avoided her like the black plauge xD Now I never have to see her ever again. I'm sure when I actually have friends that I'm sure will not go away too, I'll get over it.
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~Invoking Jan 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm real sorry to hear that ene but you can't just let it keep bothering you. You just gotta acknowledge that it happened and let it go~ That's real strength: letting go of what hurts.
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~NoOneKnowsWhereToGo Jan 27, 2013  Hobbyist
It's just hard when people keep bringing it up, but I'm trying :3 It actually made me cry, but I'll be okay eventually
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!sparkly55123 May 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
My best friend recently decided to abandon me.
Was that all I was?
Just something to lose?
...
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Mood: Love ~kosha21 Apr 28, 2012
it's beautiful and I feel that way too sometimes. totally understand. I like!!!
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~EmperorHadrian Feb 27, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is very sorrowful, and the last stanza really packs the punch that leaves your stomach hurting. The best thing to do with a person or many people who just make you feel miserable all the time is to overcome their bitterness and then leave them behind!

Anyway, you wove your emotion into this poem wonderfully.
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~Invoking Feb 27, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so very much<3

I can agree that overcoming the bitterness part...but leaving the people behind, I think would be hard to do, under certain circumstances.
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~EmperorHadrian Feb 27, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome. It can be difficult, but it can also be better for you. I had to do that once, because one of my friends was very mentally abusive to me and so, I finally just let her go. Things started getting better immediately. I was more confident in myself. You just can't let people hold you down. They have no right to do that.
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~Invoking Feb 27, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Okay, now I agree with everything you say. I'm glad to know that you managed to pull yourself through that. It must have been hard..
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~EmperorHadrian Feb 27, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It was very much worth it. If I can do it, than there is nothing stopping anyone else from doing it too =D
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