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Waking UpI wake up again in the middle of the night
Cold sweat dripping I don't know if I'm alright
Cause it's the millionth time
That I've dreamt you were mine

But now I see
It's only me
With no one else
I'm by myself...

I can hear my heartbeat echo off these walls
As I wander aimlessly through these desolate halls
I keep thinking that I'm hearing your desperate call
But that's just me pretending trying so hard not to fall

I listen to the wind as it whispers by me
But the words that it speaks aren't registering
I listen to the rain as it pours to the ground
I'm looking for you but you're nowhere around

I really fucking hate being alon
Document 5Every day I wake up is like a painful memory
One that never goes away not even if I make believe
Every night I make it through only makes the hurt worse
Every second is my suffering, every breath I take, the curse

I've wasted all these moments trying so hard to pretend
That there's something still inside me that allows my heart to mend
It's like the air I breathe attempts at suffocating me
Until I collapse onto the the ground and my chest gives one last heave

And I try so hard to be, beyond the shadow of a doubt
The person there beside you that you can't live without
I know I'm nothing more than the dirt beneath my feet
But that do
Savior.I have this darkness deep inside me,
It's what influenced this writing.
I can't control it, I can't fight it,
Barely know it, and can't hide it.

I'm just a mess with no ambition;
So much less than I envisioned.
How much more can I endure?
I don't know, I'm not too sure...

I'm not myself when I'm alone,
And yet I find I'm on my own.
I'm like a lock without a key,
There is no perfect fit for me!...

You're not alone.
Don't think like that.
Pick your head up.
I believe in you.
You can do it.
I love you...

Are you here to prove me wrong?
To make me see the brighter dawn?
With this darker side, this part of me,
How can you love
Without YouOpen my eyes, to one more day of life
(I'm just slipping through)
But I don't try to do much more than survive
(It's pointless without you)
Just one more time, I'd like to say you're mine
(And let it be true)
I can't escape, this tormented fate, not without you

Now I'm searching
But my eyes are blind
There's nobody here
There's nothing to find

And I'm left standing
Broken in tears
My heart is gone
I'm losing my mind

I've always hated myself, and wished I didn't exist
(I know I'm imperfect)
Let myself be decieved, by the taste of your kiss
(Was this really worth it?)
On my wrist, another scar laid to rest on my skin
(Do the
Optimistically PessimisticThere's broken
Then there's shattered to the core
There's saying I don't care
Or I don't love you anymore

There's hopeless
And theres frustratingly out of reach
There are lessons left to learn
But those lessons they'll never teach

There are promises
Then there are hollow and empty lies
There are moments that you treasure
And moments you want to die

There's lonliness
And there's tired of going on
There is waiting for forever
But forever will never come...
'Goodbye' Isn't Always...You don't know my secret pain
The pain I hide from every day
Every smile fades away
Etched in every word I say
But to you I seem okay

Well, that's just on the surface
Nothing about me is perfect
It's safe to say that I'm worthless
I've got no plan nor a purpose

And I can't begin to explain how it feels to be ignored
By the ones you love, by the ones that you care for
It hurts more than you could ever imagine
And I'm not having this anymore

You burrow under my skin when you assume that I'm okay
That I've never had to deal with any sort of real pain
I've been through more than you could ever forget
This experience alone is solel
Stuck In A TragedyI'm not that one in a million or a diamond in the rough;
I've never thought myself as even being just enough...
I often find myself asking me why I'm here;
The answer always comes in the form of a falling tear...

The sunset streaks behind walls of concrete.
Daylight dies like the fire inside of me...
Time is slipping by as the sky line begins to darken,
While I'm left standing here trying to be forgotten...

My whole life's,
Been stuck in a tragedy!
Not once do I remember being happy with me!

I scream,
Violently to the heavens!
But all that I hear,
Are the echoes of all my questions!

I can feel my own despair as it thickens the
One More Mistake.With every word that I say
With every smile I fake
Every moment I live
I'm making one more mistake...

All the tears that I've cried
Have fallen unnoticed
No matter how hard I try
Nobody will know this...

Every friend that I've made
Everything I create
With every door that I open
I'm making one more mistake...

I hate what I've done
And this person that I've become
I hate these scars on my wrist
Is there no ending to this...?

With every beat of my heart
With every breath that I take
Every day I wake up
Is just another mistake...
Still EmptyI try so hard to be
All of those things you need
I won't look inside of me
Cause I fear that
I'm still empty

Taking a moment, forget how to breathe
I'm my only opponent as I fall to my knees
Looking at you, all the things that I see
Could they really be true, or is it just me

There's nothing I won't do
To make sure this love is true
The doubt never crosses my mind
I know that you will be mine

Taking a breath and I'm holding it in
Take a step forward, let's let love begin
I've waited forever just to press to your lips
Holding you close as I taste your kiss

But I don't know how to
Be all those things you need
Cause when I lo
Painful MemoryWhy are you scared?
It's like you don't know where you are.
You take it step by step but never get very far.
Look at these scars!
How dare you say that they're worthless?!
Keep your opinions to yourself...
And stop pretending you're fucking perfect!

Oh!

Like the words I never spoke;
Like this dying flame of hope;
Like this web of lies we weaved;
That we both thought we believed...

You're nothing more to me,
Than a painful memory...

It must be hard!
Keeping up with all of your lies,
That you hide the truth behind as you're waiting for it to die!
Look in my eyes!
How dare you say I'm without a purpose?!
Just look at all thes
Feather FragileHer heart is feather fragile
Hidden so deep inside
Fractured and hard to handle
Her broken lullaby

Ghostly words echoing through her
A coldness like winter
Any moment may undo her
Lonely and splintered

Clouds heavy with the tears of an angel
That was caught and is hopelessly tangled
In the web of lies that the world has weaved
A fabrication she thought she believed
Her halo slips and it falls to the cold ground
Shatters asunder; not a single sound
Her tears soon follow and they washed away
Any little hope that might have remained

Her heart, so feather fragile
Behind a lock and a matching key
Nobody will ever handle
This hea
On LoveLove not forever
Love for an eternity
Because it's longer
The Secrets These Walls Hold - DarkShutter the light and let the darkness prevail.
If no one can see then who will know that I failed?
I swear I really tried and that I gave it my all;
I'm painfully aware of every one of my flaws...

I simply lay awake unsure if it's night or day,
Covered and consumed by the weight of this crushing darkness.
I hide from my mistakes and I hope that they'll go away,
Believing myself when I say that I'm really heartless...

Now more than ever I need to feel like I did before;
Like a million white roses missing none of their thorns.
You were the only reason I had left to be saved,
To fill the hole in my heart that was becoming my grave...
But Nobody KnowsI can't tell my

Tears from the rain
The hurt from the pain
My life from this game
It's all just the same

And it hurts me so badly
That you're so mad at me
I can't stop me from breaking
My hands are still shaking

Knees are so weak
I can't stay on my feet
So I fall to the ground
And I hope to be found

It's this feeling inside me
That I've never missed
It corrodes and divides me
Puts scars on my wrist

It controls and divides me
Fuels the fire inside me
Destroys all I make
Creates all my hate

I'm not that one in a million
The diamond in the rough
I'm just one more person
Who's finally had enough

Of hiding from hurt
And d
Your Former AngelWatch these broken wings,
As they fall dawn to the floor.
I'm sorry, it's just that,
I'm not your Angel anymore.

See the blackened scars,
That stain this battered frame,
The marks of pure self hatred,
Oh, Isn't it a shame?!

See the rope burn round the throat,
That you once so gently kissed,
But you don't really care – do you?
This Angel won't be missed.

Don't you see you caused this,
By feeding me your lies,
Now you can stand and watch,
As your former Angel dies.
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It's what influenced this writing.
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I'm just a mess with no ambition;
So much less than I envisioned.
How much more can I endure?
I don't know, I'm not too sure...

I'm not myself when I'm alone,
And yet I find I'm on my own.
I'm like a lock without a key,
There is no perfect fit for me!...

You're not alone.
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You can do it.
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Since You've Been GoneYou take my hand and you whisper to me,
"Darling, I love you and I promise I'll never leave..."
I look to you and without missing a single beat,
I say, "You were my missing piece, now I'm finally complete."

An involuntary smile spreads out across your lips,
And I can't help but smile as I lean in to taste your kiss...
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Would prove anything,
Except all of our worst fears?

Did you even think,
About the ones that you have now?
And the pain that you'd bring,
If you were to leave them all here...?

Do you really think,
You're life is just so horribly unbearable,
That you need to take this knife,
And do something you know is terrible?!

How many times,
Have I told you it isn't worth it?
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You stole every one of my dreams and left me all on my own!
But you can't take all this pain 'cause it's all that I've ever known!
If only I could've noticed that you were changing long before!
Maybe it's just me but I thought we were something more!

I thought you'd be the one that would actually fucking care!
And even though you said you'd be, you're still not even there!
I've always felt like I was living without a purpose!
Thanks for being the one to help confirm that I'm worthless!

Losing you is the worst pain that I could endure!
Please show some kind of mercy 'cause I can't take it anymore!
How many more times can you pick me up to let me fall?!
Do you feel no regret, can you feel nothing at all?!

Before you walk away for good and mark me off your list!
Let me give your story my own sick little twist!
Tell me if you can see the scars I bear upon my wrist!
I know that you don't care but we were something more than this!

What is the point now?
(I thought that I knew what to do...)
I can't find my way out!
(I fought myself to death for you...)

What happened to those nights that we would stay awake together?!
You'd hold me in your arms, you told me we'd be forever...
Do you care anymore?! Do you even remember?!

Can you hear my tears as they're cascading to the ground?!
Can you tell it really hurts even though there's not a sound?!
Can you make this right or am I something to dismiss?!
I know that you don't care but we were something more than this!

What happened to the promises that you always made to me?!
"Darling, I really love you and I promise I'll never leave"
I must have been a fool because I actually believed!

Can you see the pain as it's fading from my eyes?!
Can you even say that I never really tried?
Can you see the blood running over my clenched fist...?
I know that you don't care but we were something more than this...
:iconinvoking:
Just feel like screaming..
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~Tinsel2 Mar 21, 2012
<3 beautiful poetry as always!
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~HauntedByMyMemories Mar 17, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
are you ok?

I know you don't really know me, but if you need to talk about something I'm here if you need it.
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Mood: Love ~tamiea Mar 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This is just right time. I feel exactly the same today.
Saw my ex a day ago and everything just came back to me like it was yesterday (but actually it been months already)

And I love this poem a lot :)
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~TheBandGeek22 Mar 12, 2012
Wow, that was epic. Filled with a lot of emotion
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