Take It All Away.There’s a tear between each smile and a fracture on my heartAnd a thousand feelings breaking me and tearing me apartKnowing when it’s over I may lose my sanityEmbrace the mess I am and the storm inside of meIn the dark I have a chance to fight away my problemsTo ignore them all away instead of trying to solve themAll I saw when I looked back was a mass of insecurityLaying waste to who I am and ripping at the seamLowering my already non-existent self-esteemAnd I couldn’t help admitting I’m a self-made failureWalking a broken path as a second-hand saviorAnd it all adds up to nothing; me in a nutshellYanking on the chain that tethers me to hell…
Awareness.She writes such lovely poemsBut nobody really caresShe hides them all the timeTo avoid the judging staresShe wrote one yesterdayAbout a boy who said he loved herBut to her own dismayShe caught him with anotherShe wrote one about schoolAnd the words painted on her locker“No one likes you, stupid bitch.You’re lucky I’m at soccer.”She wrote about her parentsAnd how she wished they were togetherBut she knows that won’t ever happenAnd forgetting’s probably betterYes, she writes such lovely poemsBut there’s so much more to thisSee, her pencil is a razorAnd the paper is her wrist.
Kids These Days.I don’t have swag.I have integrity.I am not a boss.I am a leader.I’m not a hipster.I do what I like.I do not live only once.I live every day of my life.
Saddest Way To Be Happy.You run into their arms at the end of every dayAnd I’m just expected to… blink the tears away.
My Mind Is A Graveyard And My Body Is A Scar.There’s constantly something wrong with meI can’t look in the mirror for fear I’ll seeAnother part of me that I can’t let beI want to cut it out of my soulAnd just live with the gaping holeTake control and choose to loseThe part of my heart where the insides bruisedI didn’t fall; I was caught by the lonely, crushing darknessOf this I’m sure; it was there more than you ever wereI don’t know why the love I needIs flowing in the blood I bleedYes, I’m confused and, yes, I’m a messFrustrations magnified by stressI don’t know why I pushed so farNew cuts cover where the old ones areMy scars are scarred, my heart’s in shardsI’m breaking down like a house of cardsI fell already blind into decimating blacknessAnd used what I could find of my heart as target practice
Heartless.Happiness is an emotion I was never meant to captureEvery beat produces another microscopic fractureAnd my heart is a toy because it’s played with and abusedRipped up and torn apart thought it’s never even usedTiny pieces falling, falling all the sameLosing all the meaning that was tattooed in my veinsEach fragment is calling, calling me by nameSending shivers through my spine as I fight to break the chainsShowing me the mirror when I don’t know who to blame
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?What's taking up your time?You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really finePlease open up to meTell me of your fearsYou know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tearsDon't keep it to yourselfYou know you're not aloneI couldn't live my life without you ever coming homeI'd be so lost insideI wouldn't recognizeThe person that I see in the reflection of your eyesJust tell me you're okay, and that you love me tooI don't know what I'd doIf ever I lost you…
Coming BackYou looked at me with sunset eyesTeeming with an ocean’s depthWaves were crashing down your cheeksTears you should have never weptAnd I heard a sound I’ll not forgetThe slamming front door as you leftIn shock I waited as tragedy unfurledDenial settled into the silence of my worldWithout a glance or shallow sighYou left me here with no goodbyeBut in my heart there grew an acheA pain that, most nights, keeps me awakeAnd now I finally realizeWhat I saw in those shining eyesNot the sunset; the sunriseSo this was never a goodbyeNo…This was letting go.And now I’m coming back.
Only GreedThree kingdoms now standThree kingdoms shall fall.For each has a treasure,And greed fills them all.The first kingdom risesWith prosperous centuries ahead.Thoughts of immense richesDanced in the king's head.The next kingdom shoneWith streets adorn with gold;But what lacks is brains,For they're ignorant but bold.The final king lay in his bedNightmares lurked inside his head.For knowledge he had, but time not,And youth is was his want.So go forth the king's pawns,Knights with no fear in their eyes;They rode to their undoingSacrificing their lives.Three kingdoms once stoodThree kingdoms now gone;With treasures now lost,And only greed won.
hauntedour house is hauntedmemories floating like ghostsscreaming without sound
.he stood on the shore,and told the sea he loved her;the jealous wind tore hisvoice in two
Depressioni swallow caPsulesas i drown in a perpetual fLoodof misErywith my collection of rAzorsi drift out to Seainto thE black.the tHief of my heartkillEr of soulsand Lover of deathhas dilaPidated my dreamshe sold me to Monstersand watchEd them consume me.
Who Are You - I - KaniahliesWhen asked who she was,she panicked -her heart blurred;a humming pressurebehind the strikes of her ribs.She dissolvedinto the fizzling of anxiety.Who am I? Who am I?- 'Something wicked'she replied.
Expensive LiesI sit and stare at the toilet bowl.A guy I know is bulimic.When we compliment himI see the twist of agony in his eyesas his brain reprograms itto sound like an expensive liethat costs him another tearin his tattered dignity.Friends hurry to him,to reassure him, to love him.They tell him how beautiful he is.We didn't know him before,but he's definitely not fat now.We whisper things in concern like;body dysmorphic disorder.'I know you'll never believe mebut you are so gorgeous -not just on the inside.' Not just.And they're right, I join in,because they are right to say itbecause it happens to be true -he is stunning. Not just on the outside.And we want him to see himselfthe way we see him, beautiful.And I join in becauseI've felt that strangle of painin my stomach, bowels and belly,when someone used to tell me lies.So I know how he feels.Only, he is beautiful on the outsideand I'm not.He's not seeing reality in the mirrorand I am.And people rush to correc
Dementia.I can't imagine slowly,Painfully slowly at times,Losing my mind. Memories,Slipping from betweenLoosely held fingers,A life, drifting in time,Because, you never told that story,You never explainedThat day you met,Never mentioned,The army days, and boxing haze,That we find, hidden in cupboards,And fruit baskets.The paper feel of skinBeneath my hands, as I hold you,Reminding you I'm the granddaughter,You think is still three,When you hug me,All I can feel is your spine,Desperately stretching out of the skin,I hold back my tears,And tell you I love you,Fearing, you'll forgetBefore I can remind you again.Its a hard thing to watch;To see someone you love,Lose who they are.
love is the worst place to bei'm sick of fallingin love. i'm ready to befallen in love with.
ScarsThe mind forgetsBut the heart remembersThe criss-crossing scarsShow like starsThe streaming tearsAnd haunting fearsFlowing painOf the slainThe cries of thoseWho never screamedPraying for lifeWithout a soundThe pleas for helpNever heardThe wishes that chanceNever grantedThe pain might dullAnd the mind forgetBut the heartWill always remember
stay.Stay here, I'll grab everyWord I've said in the past day, past weekAnd throw them in the recycle binSo don't leave this footprint on my heartUntwist the knob, come inside,forget it all.Rake nails against my skin, it'll be more bearable,I swear, than the thought thatOne day, you're going to get up,Realize that maybe I'm not thePrincess you thought I was and you'reNo prince.Soaking up our faults, the snow's pure but bloodied,Soiled with ourInabilities to come to terms that maybeThis isn't as great as we've led everyoneTo believe.But, you mean too much to everLet goAnd my hands feel emptier with everyneglectedgoodbyeI feel like I've been shotAnd I hope you think it's worth itTo have me know I'll never mean as muchto you.
hearts like balloonsyou are excellentat loving people. you fillhearts until they burst.
Bitter Sweet LullabiesShe had hair like black ink,Rolling down her sordid cheeks;Staining ivory kissed skin,Droplets hitting crossbow shoulders,And cascading downHer waterfall spine.Her eyes were fresh tarmac,Holding me in her troubled gaze,As she whispered, wistful lullabies,To our forgotten daughter;With a smile so BittersweetIt left a sour taste on my lips.She walked on fallen trees,On their mossy shrouds,Waiting for me to beg her home.But she lost herself to the moonlight,Lost herself, and lost me.Ciara, that was her name...She coveted shadows, and pennies,And thoughtful smiles in empty eyes.She stalked my dreams, and whispered"... Don't blame me."And in my daughters eyes,She's all I see.
Endless LoveDuring the winter, you are my warmthDuring the spring, you are my flowerDuring the summer, you are my sunshineDuring the fall, you are my colorI want to hold you close to me everydayI want to dream in your eyesI want to be the reason why you smileLooking at the night time sky,I gave each star in the universe areason why I love you soI eventually ran out of stars,but I still have more reasons for whyI love you dearly and with all my heart and soulMy love for you is endlessAll year round, Forever,Beyond time, EndlessCountless.
an analogyeven broken glasscan shine like a million sunsif light hits it right.
Jumble Sale Girl.She was a jumble of words and phrases,That would only ever make sense to her,She wrote them down on scraps of paper,And lost them in the chaos of her life,But every now and then she'd happenAcross a note with frayed edges,And faded script, and she'd smileAs she thought of the moment,When she last sat down to write.Misty Seas, Weak knees, She wrote that when she was at west coast,Overlooking the promenade, watchingSodium light up the streets below.And she's like stormy weatherShe liked to think she wasn't predictable,Though she knew she must be,But wove lies from lightning andDreamt of thunder.Dragonfly, Candy, Cocoa,She'd walked by a sweet shop that evening,She longed for the marzipan and coca cola lollipops,And a dragonfly landed in her hair, causing a smile,To spread on icing dusted lips.Climb for the viewShe pushed through blistered palms,To reach the cliff top, as dusk began to set,And golden red leaked across the skies.Dais
Forlorn"Forlorn scenes flash five by four,Till the tide roars in, and never more..."I had a dream about you last night.A jade clasp fastened your amber hair,The iron wrought to hold due might,The lines both intricate and fair.You danced around me,Smiled and laughed and reached out,As if to bring me near, and nearer still(Till) My heart collapsed; heavily,A compound fracture of broken promisesAnd cold, lonely nightsSpent gazingAt my duvet, hoping (in vain)That each tear,Each fallen liquid sapphire would sufficeIn bringing youCloserTo me.
lungs.you are the breathof the sea inundatingthe shore.you speak in suchsleepy sighs,soft and sweet,saltwater kissessweeping, weepingagainst my scars.you are the ocean floormoving under me, andthe seahorses arespinning,the starfish areshining,the dolphins aredancing,the seaweed issinging,and i amslipping under,love filling my lungs.
Heart Shape PetalsThe broken flower travelsFrom the green abyss to the corners of my eyesSits there, waits the heart shape petalsYour angel suffers, a dying bird on my cheekOn my palms he drew the mapDon't follow me , he said, my heart is your lightWhen the sun comes up again, throw the ashesWhere the broken flower lives, as it lives no moreWhere words dance, each in a different dressTake my heart from the book of prayersAnd let the river of sadness pours into my eyesThank you for your love, my last miraclesThank you for your love, where God's secret lies
Perfection.When you look into the mirror, at your reflection...That's it.That's you.That is perfection.