The Sufferer.When I’m just about to shine
You’re there to steal my thunder
Bottle up that lightning twice
Pull me down and hold me under
To steal away the moment I’d been waiting for
That I shed blood, wept tears as I was striving forward
Toward the goal that brushed against my fingertips
And erupted in a cloud of dust; I reached for it, but missed
And that catalyst set forth a mental apocalypse
Breaking down the walls I’d set to keep the peace
To keep me far away so you can rise without resistance
To say “I love you” doesn’t mean a thing if it’s only from a distance
In this instance, your persistence paid off
What goes up sure is impressive to everyone down here
I’m glad to see you hover up above us all
And I’ll even look away when you’re just about to fall
Frustration.When I’m tired of living because all I do is fight
And cry myself to sleep in the late hours of night
When the thought of giving in is so infinitely sweeter
And pain will always have a way because pain’s a lying cheater
When my only real friend is the pillow I hold tight
And it’s drenched in so many tears I could literally drown
When the ceiling turns to shadow and devours all the light
And I try to force a smile but it comes out a crooked frown
When I gasp for every breath like it’ll make some sort of difference
And my sight is swallowed whole by the darkness in the distance
When the path I chose to walk becomes the path of most resistance
And I struggle with each step just to establish my existence
When the aching doesn’t go away, but it’s all I hold onto
And there’s an impenetrable wall that I plan on breaking through
Perfection.When you look into the mirror, at your reflection...
That is perfection.
My Mind Is A Graveyard And My Body Is A Scar.There’s constantly something wrong with me
I can’t look in the mirror for fear I’ll see
Another part of me that I can’t let be
I want to cut it out of my soul
And just live with the gaping hole
Take control and choose to lose
The part of my heart where the insides bruised
I didn’t fall; I was caught by the lonely, crushing darkness
Of this I’m sure; it was there more than you ever were
I don’t know why the love I need
Is flowing in the blood I bleed
Yes, I’m confused and, yes, I’m a mess
Frustrations magnified by stress
I don’t know why I pushed so far
New cuts cover where the old ones are
My scars are scarred, my heart’s in shards
I’m breaking down like a house of cards
I fell already blind into decimating blackness
And used what I could find of my heart as target practice
Take It All Away.There’s a tear between each smile and a fracture on my heart
And a thousand feelings breaking me and tearing me apart
Knowing when it’s over I may lose my sanity
Embrace the mess I am and the storm inside of me
In the dark I have a chance to fight away my problems
To ignore them all away instead of trying to solve them
All I saw when I looked back was a mass of insecurity
Laying waste to who I am and ripping at the seam
Lowering my already non-existent self-esteem
And I couldn’t help admitting I’m a self-made failure
Walking a broken path as a second-hand savior
And it all adds up to nothing; me in a nutshell
Yanking on the chain that tethers me to hell…
Love Me.She falls asleep most every night
To the sound of her parents pointless fight
And clinging tightly to her tear soaked pillow
She goes to school most every day
Wishing she could run away
From all those who torture her
For not being ‘cool’
Her mother, she just plain ignores her
Her father’s never even there
Who would notice if she were gone?
Who would even care?
She just wants to make it quick
To take this razor as her friend
And feel its tender loving kiss
Pressed against her paper skin
She just wants to make it stop
The feeling lonely, sad and hated
She holds the blade up to eye level
I don’t know how long she waited
She presses hard against her skin
And lines of ink bleed from the pen
The blade, it rests there on her knee
On her arm she wrote
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine
Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears
Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home
I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes
Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…
The Moment Before.Some days I can’t even get out of bed
So I lay there in the shadows with the voices in my head
And they torment me with memories and things I had to choose
Somehow it ended up no matter what it is I lose
But I put on my best smile and nobody can tell
I’m not as happy as I seem, in fact, I’m doing well
I stare myself down in the mirror and thought I’d at least try
To make it through another day I tell another lie
That’s exactly what I’ll say if anybody asks
I’m alright; I’m okay with living life behind these masks
Nobody has to worry because I’m obviously faking
I’m permanently stuck in the moment before breaking
I’m a pile of emotions all cluttered on the floor
With so much weight attached I can’t hold it anymore
But I’ve learned to live a lie and nobody can tell
That I’m just about to fall apart, In fact, I’m doing well.
Dream CriterionIf you can't fly on your dreams anymore,
I'm sorry, but don't worry,
you have simply grown up.
If you can't build a little empire on your dreams,
I'm totally sorry,
you are a dead man walking.
You are lucky, she doesn't love youThe door was open
and I listened what he said to him:
"It has come to my attention
that you love one of our girls.
My dear, you can't love these girls!
You should only come, pay, have fun
and this is it!
You have gone too far!!!!
You are lucky, she doesn't love you,
so you can go."
OPEN WOUNDOPEN WOUND
Broken dreams in lovers room,
Pain's flowing in the air,
She's so perfect, my doom,
Pain's growing, I don't dare.
PARALLEL IIPARALLEL II
I'm dying along with myself,
Always on the same nightmares,
Without being able to help me,
But only to wake,
If I succeed, so.
And when I wake up,
I feel worst,
Because I'm tired
and even more alone.
that feeds me and kills me
at the same time,
Always leading me
to do again the same mistakes
and I feel worst,
Because I can't wake up,
Neither I want to sleep.
FOR EROS?FOR EROS?
Some time in the past, without being asked,
I started thinking
And finally I just felt
Words poetic for Eros,
from a poet, aren't worthy.
I don't really know,
If I was or not,
but they called me so.
So I simply felt
that such words would be Worthy,
Only if the poet, even a bad one,
was born from Eros.
Maybe they are wrong
and I was just born now for you.
Maybe I am wrong.
However For Eros
Nothing I had written,
Nothing I had shared
Nothing I had kept.
Till I met You!
Like a present by God,
Your view was revealed to my eyes.
There's nothing ever appeared to me more beautiful!
There's nothing ever appeared to me as cute!
Dark AngelDark Angel
A dark angel searches for her love on earth
She has departed heaven to find her soul mate
She has given up her white garments for those of jet black
She is in a state of mourning and loss
She died but her partner remained on earth
She could hear his bitter sobs while she was in heaven
The tears filled her eyes
And she vowed to return and sooth her partner's soul
God refused her permission to leave
But she departed nonetheless
She has been banned from Heaven for a thousand years
But she can cope with such banishment
So long as she can find here true love
She returns to the cemetery where she was buried
And her true love is there by the side of her grave
"Hello, my love, I have returned!"
"How can this be? you died and departed from this world"
"I have returned to heal your heart and support you"
Tears fill his eyes
"How can this be? My grief has driven me mad"
"I cannot return to Heaven for a long time"
"But so long as I am with you I am at peace"
"We will grow old together"
I Fucked Your Mind, SorryI'm Sorry I Loved You,
I'm Sorry I Love You,
but I'm a sick bastard
that cannot stay away from you.
I cannot let it go,
I will not harm you.
What I'm Going Through, It's Not Your Fault.
What You're Going Through, It's Not My Fault.
The moment I was bitten
by the crazy dog you hired,
I realized that my crazy love
has fucked your mind.
It passed a long time
but you can't recover.
I'm Sorry I Loved You,
I'm Sorry I Love You.
Name testA girl that lies to you about her name,
she may hide something or she may want
something of yours.
A girl that shares her real name
either she wants nothing
or she wants everything from you.
Too weakDoctors say I'm simply weak,
so I get sick all the time.
Nothing more, nothing less.
I must be careful.
I believe them, I feel it,
I was always feeling it.
How my love for you is so strong?
Maybe you are right,
my love for you is a sickness,
result of my weakness.
Why You?Once you asked
I Ask MySelf The Same Question
The World Is YoursThe world is yours,
You know it
and I know it,
no matter what I'm saying.
But don't ask me
what I would do without you.
simply it wouldn't exist.
But it would exist another world,
better or not, I don't know.
But you exist
and this world exists
The world is yours.
New SecretsNew Secrets
You never loved me,
but I shared with you my little secrets.
No, you didn't ask it.
No, I didn't expect anything.
I just felt so,
and to proove to you my intentions.
I never expected that you'll love me,
but I couldn't imagine
that you'll tell my secrets to a dog
and send him to get me!
Therefor I created new secrets,
but again I want to share them only with you.
I Don't Have TitsI found his lost letter,
I have no comments,
I'll just read it to you:
Whom would you ask if he prefers dogs or cats?
Are you jealous with everybody that sits with
another girl when you go to the toilet?
My every hug was so real,
from the beginning,
I don't know why,
there is no explanation for such feeling.
I 've never called a girl Angel.
To whom you would respond when he said
"You can touch me too..."
with these words
"You don't have tits"
When I met you
You weren't professional,
but you wanted to be,
You had just left innocence
heading to the fight,
but you weren't a soldier yet,
you needed practise.
When I met you
I did two mistakes
I treated you as you were innocent, but you weren't
I treated you as you were professional, but you weren't.
Watching you now I realise even more
I'm part of you,
what you were and what you became,
I'm part of you,
your best and your worst.
Worst...I don't want to change you,
if you don't want to change,
your best part is inside you.
Even if I had...ti