The Sufferer.When I’m just about to shineYou’re there to steal my thunderBottle up that lightning twicePull me down and hold me underTo steal away the moment I’d been waiting forThat I shed blood, wept tears as I was striving forwardToward the goal that brushed against my fingertipsAnd erupted in a cloud of dust; I reached for it, but missedAnd that catalyst set forth a mental apocalypseBreaking down the walls I’d set to keep the peaceTo keep me far away so you can rise without resistanceTo say “I love you” doesn’t mean a thing if it’s only from a distanceIn this instance, your persistence paid offWhat goes up sure is impressive to everyone down hereI’m glad to see you hover up above us allAnd I’ll even look away when you’re just about to fall
Frustration.When I’m tired of living because all I do is fightAnd cry myself to sleep in the late hours of nightWhen the thought of giving in is so infinitely sweeterAnd pain will always have a way because pain’s a lying cheaterWhen my only real friend is the pillow I hold tightAnd it’s drenched in so many tears I could literally drownWhen the ceiling turns to shadow and devours all the lightAnd I try to force a smile but it comes out a crooked frownWhen I gasp for every breath like it’ll make some sort of differenceAnd my sight is swallowed whole by the darkness in the distanceWhen the path I chose to walk becomes the path of most resistanceAnd I struggle with each step just to establish my existenceWhen the aching doesn’t go away, but it’s all I hold ontoAnd there’s an impenetrable wall that I plan on breaking through
My Mind Is A Graveyard And My Body Is A Scar.There’s constantly something wrong with meI can’t look in the mirror for fear I’ll seeAnother part of me that I can’t let beI want to cut it out of my soulAnd just live with the gaping holeTake control and choose to loseThe part of my heart where the insides bruisedI didn’t fall; I was caught by the lonely, crushing darknessOf this I’m sure; it was there more than you ever wereI don’t know why the love I needIs flowing in the blood I bleedYes, I’m confused and, yes, I’m a messFrustrations magnified by stressI don’t know why I pushed so farNew cuts cover where the old ones areMy scars are scarred, my heart’s in shardsI’m breaking down like a house of cardsI fell already blind into decimating blacknessAnd used what I could find of my heart as target practice
Why Do You Do This To Me?You took my breath away thenWatched me suffocate.
Take It All Away.There’s a tear between each smile and a fracture on my heartAnd a thousand feelings breaking me and tearing me apartKnowing when it’s over I may lose my sanityEmbrace the mess I am and the storm inside of meIn the dark I have a chance to fight away my problemsTo ignore them all away instead of trying to solve themAll I saw when I looked back was a mass of insecurityLaying waste to who I am and ripping at the seamLowering my already non-existent self-esteemAnd I couldn’t help admitting I’m a self-made failureWalking a broken path as a second-hand saviorAnd it all adds up to nothing; me in a nutshellYanking on the chain that tethers me to hell…
1 amI won’t ask forgivenessI hoped you would forget about the things I saidI promise it was never you…And I won’t see you fall when all you have to doIs let me go and put these memories to restI don’t care at all, but the tears, they doWhere they fall is where I lose another piece of youI know that the sinlessDon’t understand what it’s like to regret; I’m in over my headI kept it all away from you…Let me go; I’ve been failing youThese memories will fade awayAnd I’ll disappear tooI don’t care at all, but the scars, they doI keep secrets better than promises to you
Love Me.She falls asleep most every nightTo the sound of her parents pointless fightAnd clinging tightly to her tear soaked pillowShe goes to school most every dayWishing she could run awayFrom all those who torture herFor not being ‘cool’Her mother, she just plain ignores herHer father’s never even thereWho would notice if she were gone?Who would even care?She just wants to make it quickTo take this razor as her friendAnd feel its tender loving kissPressed against her paper skinShe just wants to make it stopThe feeling lonely, sad and hatedShe holds the blade up to eye levelI don’t know how long she waitedShe presses hard against her skinAnd lines of ink bleed from the penThe blade, it rests there on her kneeOn her arm she wrote“Love me...”
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?What's taking up your time?You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really finePlease open up to meTell me of your fearsYou know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tearsDon't keep it to yourselfYou know you're not aloneI couldn't live my life without you ever coming homeI'd be so lost insideI wouldn't recognizeThe person that I see in the reflection of your eyesJust tell me you're okay, and that you love me tooI don't know what I'd doIf ever I lost you…
Starless NightsSo it's dark outsideAnother starless nightYou made me swallow my prideWhy did we have to fightSo I'm walking aloneDown this empty streetJust trying to find my homeSuffering this defeatSo I find myselfWith new cuts on my wristI don't want your helpYou helped start all of thisAnd I duck away from the lightOut of sight, out of mindOut of luck, out of timeI give up, don't even want to tryScreaming 'Fuck it, I just wanna say goodbye!'[Chorus]It's these kinds of nightsThat make you grow strongerWhen you can't find the lightOr stand it any longerWhen you've got to pretendIt didn't come to an endThat you can still sendOut your love to make amendsIt's these kinds of nightsThat you toss and turnBut you never sleepWhen you can feel it burnThe pain and the hurt areRunning ever so deepTell me why you had to goTell me why'd you leave me[End Chorus]And it hurts with every stepNever thought I'd ever letGo, of youIs this what you meantWhen you said that life is a
Empty Coffee DreamYou know it, I like coffee, I'm addicted to coffee!How many times I have begged you to drink a coffee together?I know you would probably drink something else,but this doesn't really matter.How many times?Too many...So many that if it ever happens, nothing will be normal,as I was imagining this in the beginning.Even in my dream the picture is empty.My coffee is there, your drink is there,but there is no me, no you.
We all are beautiful!We all are beautiful!The problem is on our eyes!
Alcohol, smoke and your perfumeI was standing and watching, among others,not on the front,as I learned my lesson from you; I'm weak.There a was a girl, challenging...Not for a moment I hesitated, just a few stepsand I took her dress off.She didn't get angry, but surprised...and maybe a little sad.You see I destroyed her magic in just a few seconds.After a few minutes, dressed, she was staring at me.She knew I was in love with a girl like her,but not her.Back to my four walls, alone in my bedroom,I close my eyes, a deep breathand I smell those nights,alcohol, smoke and your perfume.
AlarmI had an alarm on my heart,but this love was too silent.
Dream CriterionIf you can't fly on your dreams anymore,I'm sorry, but don't worry,you have simply grown up.If you can't build a little empire on your dreams,I'm totally sorry,you are a dead man walking.
Act of rage,Attacking your enemy it's not an act of rage.He's your enemy.
RedemptionRedemptionthey askmy moonless nightsLurkingin the darkness of my mindAlways whispering,that there is no other storyTo redeem me,Except mine.
SpareSpare a smile for my eyesSpare some words for my presenceSpare some time cause I need itShare your dance with my fireShare your flesh with my touchShare your spell with my dirtShare my thirst with your laughShare my truth with your eyesShare your beauty with meShare your name againSpare your smile, I need itSpare your touch for my coldSpare a truth for my painShare my hands with yours.Spare your smile againSpare some words to surprise meSpare your hog for my desertSpare a lie for my hopeSpare some time cause I need itShare your dance with my fireShare this little... I won't hurt youShare my truth with your eyesSpare me, I'm not worthy.
DIS - GRACEWatch the stars,they will blow tonight,Hold my head,I have lost my fightEase your eyes,I'm alone tonight,There's no ice,I came you to findI feel sorry,but it's not 'am shy,I feel sorry,I should not denyI feel sorry,but this hole of Lightheld my sensesall this wasted timeY ' insisted long,Now I'll stop denying,Blind, so wrong,Not for me such buyingNaughty flirt,but so pure, 'am 'mazed,Feel my dirt,Feel my bitter tasteOne more guyon your working night, 'feel so dry,You dragged out my lying.Thank you lady, 've treated me so fair,Fairy not,but still me I dareAfter all,It is just a nightand the hole;still It's full of Light.
LullabySleep nowThere is nothingto fearI will notleave youI will be hereI will hold youlistening to you breathkeeping you safeDon't fear the nightShe's not here to harm youShe's here to help you restDarkness may be hereBut it will give wayto a new beginningFall off to sleepI'll sit awhileand sing loo-li,lai-lay
I'm Going NoWhereI'm Going NoWhere, But My Way Is Certain.
Truth Can't Be RudeTruth Can't Be Rude, Except If You're Blind.
Truth of the crazyFor a crazy person we are the crazy,because truth is a matter of intention.
My NightingalesMy NightingalesI Send You Nightingalesto sing you my love,but they return crying.
The World Is YoursThe world is yours,You know itand I know it,no matter what I'm saying.But don't ask mewhat I would do without you.This world,without you,simply it wouldn't exist.But it would exist another world,better or not, I don't know.But you existand this world existsandThe world is yours.
Why You?Once you askedWhy You?I Ask MySelf The Same QuestionEvery Night,Every Day,Every Hour,Every Minute.Why You???
Those Who CareHold me close,Then kiss my hair,And just remind me,There are those who care.
It Can't Rain All The TimeIt Can't Rain All The Time,but it's raining now.
It's Lonely At The Top.It's lonely at the bottom, too.