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The Sufferer.When I’m just about to shine
You’re there to steal my thunder
Bottle up that lightning twice
Pull me down and hold me under
To steal away the moment I’d been waiting for
That I shed blood, wept tears as I was striving forward
Toward the goal that brushed against my fingertips
And erupted in a cloud of dust; I reached for it, but missed
And that catalyst set forth a mental apocalypse
Breaking down the walls I’d set to keep the peace
To keep me far away so you can rise without resistance
To say “I love you” doesn’t mean a thing if it’s only from a distance
In this instance, your persistence paid off
What goes up sure is impressive to everyone down here
I’m glad to see you hover up above us all
And I’ll even look away when you’re just about to fall
Frustration.When I’m tired of living because all I do is fight
And cry myself to sleep in the late hours of night
When the thought of giving in is so infinitely sweeter
And pain will always have a way because pain’s a lying cheater
When my only real friend is the pillow I hold tight
And it’s drenched in so many tears I could literally drown
When the ceiling turns to shadow and devours all the light
And I try to force a smile but it comes out a crooked frown
When I gasp for every breath like it’ll make some sort of difference
And my sight is swallowed whole by the darkness in the distance
When the path I chose to walk becomes the path of most resistance
And I struggle with each step just to establish my existence
When the aching doesn’t go away, but it’s all I hold onto
And there’s an impenetrable wall that I plan on breaking through
My Mind Is A Graveyard And My Body Is A Scar.There’s constantly something wrong with me
I can’t look in the mirror for fear I’ll see
Another part of me that I can’t let be
I want to cut it out of my soul
And just live with the gaping hole
Take control and choose to lose
The part of my heart where the insides bruised
I didn’t fall; I was caught by the lonely, crushing darkness
Of this I’m sure; it was there more than you ever were
I don’t know why the love I need
Is flowing in the blood I bleed
Yes, I’m confused and, yes, I’m a mess
Frustrations magnified by stress
I don’t know why I pushed so far
New cuts cover where the old ones are
My scars are scarred, my heart’s in shards
I’m breaking down like a house of cards
I fell already blind into decimating blackness
And used what I could find of my heart as target practice
Take It All Away.There’s a tear between each smile and a fracture on my heart
And a thousand feelings breaking me and tearing me apart
Knowing when it’s over I may lose my sanity
Embrace the mess I am and the storm inside of me
In the dark I have a chance to fight away my problems
To ignore them all away instead of trying to solve them
All I saw when I looked back was a mass of insecurity
Laying waste to who I am and ripping at the seam
Lowering my already non-existent self-esteem
And I couldn’t help admitting I’m a self-made failure
Walking a broken path as a second-hand savior
And it all adds up to nothing; me in a nutshell
Yanking on the chain that tethers me to hell…
Heartless.Happiness is an emotion I was never meant to capture
Every beat produces another microscopic fracture
And my heart is a toy because it’s played with and abused
Ripped up and torn apart thought it’s never even used
Tiny pieces falling, falling all the same
Losing all the meaning that was tattooed in my veins
Each fragment is calling, calling me by name
Sending shivers through my spine as I fight to break the chains
Showing me the mirror when I don’t know who to blame
1 amI won’t ask forgiveness
I hoped you would forget about the things I said
I promise it was never you…
And I won’t see you fall when all you have to do
Is let me go and put these memories to rest
I don’t care at all, but the tears, they do
Where they fall is where I lose another piece of you
I know that the sinless
Don’t understand what it’s like to regret; I’m in over my head
I kept it all away from you…
Let me go; I’ve been failing you
These memories will fade away
And I’ll disappear too
I don’t care at all, but the scars, they do
I keep secrets better than promises to you
Love Me.She falls asleep most every night
To the sound of her parents pointless fight
And clinging tightly to her tear soaked pillow
She goes to school most every day
Wishing she could run away
From all those who torture her
For not being ‘cool’
Her mother, she just plain ignores her
Her father’s never even there
Who would notice if she were gone?
Who would even care?
She just wants to make it quick
To take this razor as her friend
And feel its tender loving kiss
Pressed against her paper skin
She just wants to make it stop
The feeling lonely, sad and hated
She holds the blade up to eye level
I don’t know how long she waited
She presses hard against her skin
And lines of ink bleed from the pen
The blade, it rests there on her knee
On her arm she wrote
The Moment Before.Some days I can’t even get out of bed
So I lay there in the shadows with the voices in my head
And they torment me with memories and things I had to choose
Somehow it ended up no matter what it is I lose
But I put on my best smile and nobody can tell
I’m not as happy as I seem, in fact, I’m doing well
I stare myself down in the mirror and thought I’d at least try
To make it through another day I tell another lie
That’s exactly what I’ll say if anybody asks
I’m alright; I’m okay with living life behind these masks
Nobody has to worry because I’m obviously faking
I’m permanently stuck in the moment before breaking
I’m a pile of emotions all cluttered on the floor
With so much weight attached I can’t hold it anymore
But I’ve learned to live a lie and nobody can tell
That I’m just about to fall apart, In fact, I’m doing well.
Dictionary DefinitionLonely (adj.)
You might as well embrace the air
For you, no one is here to care
Utilize this and you will gain power
No one will notice your trembling cower
Lost, forgotten, most-likely abandoned
You yourself are your closest companion
This world, for you, has no use
Looked away from all of your abuse
Shattered into a million fragments
Numb to all your very own torments
Your evidence, no matter what, is always false
They’ve turned a blind eye to their own faults
Freshly opened, they weep and bleed
However, you must not concede
So please remember this
It’s very important
Give your pain definitions
And, surely, it won’t torment
Don’t place it in the heart
Where it will taint like a virus
Keep it in the mind
Reason will keep you from crisis
...Does lack of gravity
floating in your
and what about
deprivation; loss of
leaving you light headed again?
The stars have given in.
[The view must be so beautiful .]
Ta Onira Tou HimonaΤα Όνειρα Του Χειμώνα
Τα Όνειρα Του Χειμώνα Πεθαίνουν Την Άνοιξη.
Αν Δεν Πεθάνουν, Σε Σκοτώνουν Το Καλοκαίρι.
Oh the things I wishStress
Run away to Neverland I must
Free from horror
Free from hell
Free from the devils
Oh the things I wish
A throne of my own
Peaceful music played in the air
Live like a king
Just for the day
Generation (A Poem)What is wrong with our generation?
Do you plan to change us over night?
Do you think were that inferior?
And not-so very bright?
Do you think we don't know how to think?
Do you think we don't know how to speak?
Do you think we so cold and jaded?
Do you think we are so bleak?
Do you think we don't feel?
Do you think we don't learn?
Do you think that we give no respect?
And have no respect to earn?
What's wrong with taking selfies?
What's wrong with facebook?
What's wrong with an Ipad?
What's wrong with a nook?
You may voice your complaints,
Your sorrows and your pity,
You can think your so smart,
So clever and so witty
But there is nothing you can do,
To stop all our flaws,
To stop all our gifts,
And to change our social laws
You can say we are careless,
Reckless and Young,
But really our voices,
Are yet to be sung
We still are new,
And have much to say,
But it all won't happen,
In a single day
Be ever so patient,
And the world will change
There is nothing
I will not
I will be here
I will hold you
listening to you breath
keeping you safe
Don't fear the night
She's not here to harm you
She's here to help you rest
Darkness may be here
But it will give way
to a new beginning
Fall off to sleep
I'll sit awhile
and sing loo-li,lai-lay
It Wasn't MeI felt such a shame
that I found you lovely
when you were crying.
I know you can't forgive me,
but please at least remember
that It Wasn't Me
who made you cry.
A Bloody, Stupid Miracle The day we’d cured the human condition was the day I put a bullet through my head and didn’t die. It was also the day I realized how scared I actually was of death, and after hours of muscle ache from holding that gauze against my open skull, after the wound closed and everything went back to normal, I had myself a good old-fashioned brainstorm. How ironic.
But when summer came, everything had fallen to shit. The air scorched my skin and parched my tongue every time I took a breath. The sun glared down on a rapidly-collapsing world, full of the undying bastard children of cruelty and misfortune. What was one to do when their cells regenerated faster than they decomposed?
My feet hit the pavement, now littered with jagged bits of glass to snap at my toes, thoroughly baked by the blazing ball of bitter disdain high overhead. Today was worse than yesterday. Though I’d often wondered the purpose of it anymore, I
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