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It doesn't matter to you
If I'm your hundred thousandth pageview
Or your billionth subscriber
Or the first to ever follow
Which is kind of hard to swallow
When every fiber of my being
Is continuously screaming

I hate you.

Well, maybe not hate…
But I do envy you.

Because you're what people want.
You're who they gave a chance.
You're who they want to know.

You are discovered.

And all I get is swept under the rug.

So the next time you need me to propel your popularity
I'll be right here
Already envying you.
They say that envy is one of the seven deadly sins. Well, looks like I'm going to hell. See you there.
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ChinichiTiu Featured By Owner Edited Dec 24, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:iconintheskygirl: describes my personality. yep like what they said. im going to hell.
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EverythingIsWords Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2013
I can relate to this so much. Good job on it. x)
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Andecaya Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
CONGRATULATIONS!

This deviation is featured on :iconallart-r-us:

[link]

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Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is just stooped in irony. Thanks for the feature, though.
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Andecaya Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sometimes that is art, too ^^ You have arrived one of our admins with it and that's why you are featured!
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LiquidLyricism Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I have had times where I am envious of "discovered" artists, to be sure... but it's the same as envying one of the "popular" crowd at school -pointless.
In the end those who are too commonly loved and accepted by the mainstream become isolated in a swarm of superficial fucks. They must then either pretend to care about each and every one of their followers, in effect becoming superficial themselves... or they must remain aloof from it all and pretend their audience doesn't exist for the sake of retaining some bit of authenticity in their art, or in who they are.
Very few people do well with fame. Interesting that so many people crave it.

There is a saying "if you can count the number of good friends on one hand... then you are very lucky" ...I think this applies to watchers, quality feedback, etc. as well.
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:iconinvoking:
Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I cannot argue with that. And now I just feel stupid. Thanks for putting it straight for me. Guess I was just having a moment of weakness.
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LiquidLyricism Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Jealousy happens to the best of us. No worries. :)

I was having a similar experience with DA a couple weeks back when I wrote this [link] ...the only difference was that I got over the jealousy part pretty quickly and moved on to rage.
(Written on my primary account, this is my secondary one.)
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NoOneKnowsWhereToGo Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist
Yes, yes it is. I watch the discovery ID channel a lot which is basically all about murder and people do kill others because they envy them. I will definatly see you there, but you really shouldn't envy other people, you have such a way with words that I don't see how you could envy anyone. No one can take that away from you. Popularity comes and goes while talent and skill do not unless you chose to stop. :3
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Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Very true words, I suppose. Thank you <3
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NoOneKnowsWhereToGo Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist
You're welcome <3
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deathlydreamer Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yet here I sit, envying all your views, subscribers and groups you're featured in.
HIGH-FIVE! :D
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:iconinvoking:
Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:meow:
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chancerox Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
yeah this is a lot of what i feel. but i guess as long as there are a few people that enjoy my art, then it makes it worth it. :) lovely job.
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Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Hmhm, yeah. Tis true.
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Randime Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Student General Artist
I have felt the same way for 14 years. My reservation in hell is still waiting for me, no doubt about it, but at least there is still time to spend with my loved ones. Not everyone can be famous, but we can all be admired, even when we don't know it. I'm not saying to give up, I'm just saying to not let getting noticed online take over your life. I almost did... and I almost drove someone very important to me away. All I can say now is good luck and have a splendid day my friend. :heart:
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Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Well, thank you :heart:
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SandwichFish Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're saying this when you have 10,000 pageviews xD
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Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Pageviews are nothing but an arbitrary number. They mean nothing except for how many times somebody has been directed or redirected to my page. And that is worth nothing. A fave on my work, or a comment, that's what's worth something. Feedback and critical analysis is what matters, not how many times I've been looked at.
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SandwichFish Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
But still I understand where you're coming from :/ I can't ever get my art noticed
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Vampirate-freak101 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel the same way sometimes...
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:iconinvoking:
Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
And that is perfectly okay... These things take a long time, as I'm finding out. I figure if we just keep trying, somebody will notice eventually, right? Don't give up hope.
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Vampirate-freak101 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I totally agree :) And I won't give up hope ^_^ Same goes to you :D
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:iconinvoking:
Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks~ :meow:
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Vampirate-freak101 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem :D
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:iconinvoking:
Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:meow:
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Vampirate-freak101 Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
^_^
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Wolf-chanOokami Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah, I'm gonna see you in Hell, too, as this verse speaks for me as well. :P
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:iconinvoking:
Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
At least I'll be in good company :P but still, I hear you loud and clear.
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Wolf-chanOokami Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah, sometimes I wonder "what makes them more special then me?".
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:iconinvoking:
Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Exactly. I'm always asking myself the question "What can I do that is different and unique?" Unfortunately, I can never think of anything...
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:iconwolf-chanookami:
Wolf-chanOokami Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Apparently we can't do much more then what we already do. :shrug:
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:iconinvoking:
Invoking Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah, sadly.
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