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Savior.I have this darkness deep inside me,
It's what influenced this writing.
I can't control it, I can't fight it,
Barely know it, and can't hide it.
I'm just a mess with no ambition;
So much less than I envisioned.
How much more can I endure?
I don't know, I'm not too sure...
I'm not myself when I'm alone,
And yet I find I'm on my own.
I'm like a lock without a key,
There is no perfect fit for me!...
You're not alone.
Don't think like that.
Pick your head up.
I believe in you.
You can do it.
I love you...
Are you here to prove me wrong?
To make me see the brighter dawn?
With this darker side, this part of me,
How can you love
HurricaneI don't really know
How all of this came to be
When I already know
She can do better than me
I feel like she's the desert
And whenever I hold her hand
I realize that makes me
Nothing more than a grain of sand
I can't help but ask myself
How is it that she's with me?
I'm just a mess when I'm alone
And I'm fucking up constantly
In every way, shape, and form
Like the calm of the night
Or like the eye of a storm
(And if that storm were to break...)
I always have the thought
That if people were rain
l would be just a drop
And she'd be the hurricane...
If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine
Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears
Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home
I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes
Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…
Soon EnoughI know things have been kind of rough
Though I've put forth my best
It's just never enough
And I'm sorry...
To me, things have felt so unreal
I can't believe you've stolen my heart
But I love the way that you make me feel
And it kills me that we're so far apart
I wish more than anything that you could be here
To kiss all my scars and wipe all of these tears
And I'm sorry I can't be much more
You know I'm a mess, and I've told you before
That still I promise I'll forever be yours...
I'll be there with you soon enough
You're all that I've needed
And you're all I think of
So don't worry...
To me, this all happened so fast
Tears to RainWhen you cry
I'll pick up the pieces
Here's my heart
I want you to keep this
So you'll be fine
Let me take the fall
It's only just begun
It only hurts just once
I'll shield you from the pain
Till all the tears you cry turn to rain...
Every word I speak is true...
Every single 'I love you...'
Part Mirage, Part NightmareI try to fight, the feelings I, hide inside
And the piosonus thoughts they bring
But darling, they're all that's left
They're all of you, that I've kept
You're still all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, that I believe
But when you're gone
My heart threatens to collapse
Because it's broken in two
And it's missing its other half
Please don't leave, please stay with me...
I can't breathe...
I'm on the edge of insanity...
Part mirage, part nightmare...
Please come back!
I just need to know you're there...
I know that I've, said I'm fine
That everything, is alright
But darling, I miss the feeling
Deafening Voices...Why does every single day
Seem to stay the same
Shade of lifeless grey
Can nothing ease the pain?
When I see your face
My heart begins to race
I long for your embrace
I'd kill for just a taste
(Of your sweet kiss)
But when I look around
You're nowhere to be found
I hear the maddening thoughts
As they begin to sound
Inside of my head
That are best left unsaid
Locked inside my mind
They chip me away
Just a little at a time
There have always been
Things I've held inside
That I wish I could confess
Or just get off of my mind
When I he
Please Come Home...I've not grown used to this...
I'm not used to being alone...
And I've had enough of it...
For too long I've been without you...
I have so much to say...
Will I ever get the chance...?
I long for our forever...
To stay lost in our romance...
And I've not grown used to this!
I'm not used to being alone!
I miss our everything!
Won't you please, come
I miss our everything...
The warmth of your embrace...
The way you'd hold me...
The way you made me feel safe...
I long to feel you once more...
And taste the sweet of your kiss...
I want how it was just before...
We were seperated like this...
Cause I'll not
Wonder.Do you fear your own death?
Is it hard to conceive?
Draw in your last breath, then-
Your last breath will leave.
Isn't it strange to think,
That there's a timer above your head?
A countdown you can't see,
That finishes when you're dead.
Don't you ever wonder,
What it'll be like when you're gone?
I bet the world will keep on spinning.
There will be another dawn.
But the harsh reality behind it-
We're all going to die.
There's no reason to try to fight it
Not even to question why.
It makes me wish that I could have a little more to give,
Because I'm not afraid of how I'll die...
I'm afraid of how I'll
Painful MemoryWhy are you scared?
It's like you don't know where you are.
You take it step by step but never get very far.
Look at these scars!
How dare you say that they're worthless?!
Keep your opinions to yourself...
And stop pretending you're fucking perfect!
Like the words I never spoke;
Like this dying flame of hope;
Like this web of lies we weaved;
That we both thought we believed...
You're nothing more to me,
Than a painful memory...
It must be hard!
Keeping up with all of your lies,
That you hide the truth behind as you're waiting for it to die!
Look in my eyes!
How dare you say I'm without a purpose?!
Just look at all thes
Since You've Been GoneYou take my hand and you whisper to me,
"Darling, I love you and I promise I'll never leave..."
I look to you and without missing a single beat,
I say, "You were my missing piece, now I'm finally complete."
An involuntary smile spreads out across your lips,
And I can't help but smile as I lean in to taste your kiss...
Then the frame stops and it's stuck on this same scene;
My nights have been so haunted with the recurrence of this dream.
I always hope that I'll wake up and this dream will become true,
But I'm so tired of only dreaming...
Darling, I miss you...
And since you've been gone I've been wasting away,
With YouI woke up and it was yesterday
And I remembered the feelings
You said I don't care anymore
God, I remember everything
Like it's happening now
As I fall back down to the floor
And again I lay awake
In this lifeless place
That never was a part of me
And I tried so, hard to be
Beyond the shadow of a doubt
The person there beside you
That you can't live without
But you just pushed away
You made no effort
And won't even hear me out
I don't know how we lost our way
And it's killing me inside
I just want to scream and shout
But you won't hear me
You never do
It's like I'm screaming to the empty air
Even though you're right next
Optimistically PessimisticThere's broken
Then there's shattered to the core
There's saying I don't care
Or I don't love you anymore
And theres frustratingly out of reach
There are lessons left to learn
But those lessons they'll never teach
There are promises
Then there are hollow and empty lies
There are moments that you treasure
And moments you want to die
And there's tired of going on
There is waiting for forever
But forever will never come...
These FlamesI find, the flames attractive
As I watch this city burn away
So close, I almost had it
I lost it all when I turned away
My heart is full of broken dreams
Shattered hopes and memories
Everything that causes pain
Like a drop of acidic rain
The wind blows and it carries with it
Whispered words and the sorrows hidden
Sanctuary among the ashes
But the arson has one more match lit
And I find, the flames attractive
As I watch this city burn away
Was so close, I almost had it
I lost it all when you turned away
I regret every single moment
Without you with your hand in mine
I regret never even knowing
You loved me the entire time
Nicht Ohne Sie....I don't know how to start this...
Just knowing that you're leaving casts my heart into darker shadows
Love has always been, for me, an uphill struggle and losing battles
It's like a book without an ending, you took my heart out of it's cage
And I don't want to put it back cause I don't want to turn this page...
If I could find me a miracle that could write us another chapter
I wouldn't hesitate a second cause I want this forever after
But life isn't a happy ending, there's not always light after dark
The only thing that breaks the silence is the sound of my breaking heart
This life will never be the same, without you here beside m
I'm Alive..?Don't try to see the good in me
Cause it's hidden behind lock and key
I never let anyone inside
Won't let them wipe the tears I've cried
I don't think they'd really care
If they knew of all the scars I bear
They try to make me feel less worthless
But I know that I deserve this
For still having a beating heart
I'm trying not to fall apart
Just take me
Make me feel
Erase these lies
Tell me what's real
Hold me close
Hold me all night
Make me feel like
Tried Everything..Another day left to waste away
Another night searching for you
Another memory that haunts me
Here comes the pain
It's almost like I can hear you
But you're so far away...
Another moment without you
Another minute passes by
Another part of my heart dies
Another tear I'm bound to cry
It's almost like I can feel you
I know I can't but I still try...
There are so many things
That I just want to shout
And there is so much more
I knew nothing about
Just having you here with me
Leaves me without a doubt
You're heavens trying everything
You're heaven trying everything
To keep me out
The Story of UsIt's just beneath the skin
Her heart so paper thin
It fell and broke again
It's all because of him
Left her for what she was
A broken shattered soul
She can't believe she can
Repair her heart to whole
She's tried so many things
To ease the pain inside
But she still feels its sting
In each tear she's cried
But then you came along
You took this broken girl
Made her believe she's strong
You have become her world
Look deep into her eyes
Let all the pain subside
Return the tears she's cried
Don't ever leave her side
She's fallen hard for you
Please don't betray her trust
You may have heard this too
This is the story of us...
What If...?What if one more lonely day
Is just too much for you to take
What if it's too long
What if it's too far away
What if every time I tried
To make you feel like it's alright
You still broke down
You still cried
What if every word I said
Had never stuck inside your head
Would you be here
In his stead
It's just one more lonely day
They come and then they go away
And every time
I say you're mine
Keep what I said
In your head
Cause I know that it may seem too long
Like that day is just too far away
Please know that I'll still be around
To dry your tears, won't let you drown
As long as you remain here too
Cause nobody could rep
FragileThis has to get better
We're fragile like a feather
You're lost and I'm broken
Our hearts are torn open
So fragile this could break
So sad it would only take
A few simple words
They would light the fire
That would burn our whole world
They had just started beating
So fragile, this feeling
I've got to be dreaming
Why can't you hear me screaming
So fragile I'm scared to breathe
For fear that this would shatter
But I know you'd never leave
So it doesn't really matter
Now as the end is drawing closer
(It isn't fair)
And I know it's nearly over
I've lost all my composure
(This I swear)
I just want to hold her.
Scared To BlinkEvery time I close my eyes
All I see is this vision
It's you standing there
With your lips pressed to theirs
I try to believe that it's a lie
But it isn't
And then my whole world
Becomes shattered once more
I want to erase it
But it keeps coming back
I just want to forget it
But it remains still intact
The wounds are still fresh
And the blood is still pouring
Feel my heart in my chest
And all the pain I'm ignoring
I really want to tell you
But I can't bring it up
Cause that will reopen doors
That should remain tightly shut...
Hurts Like HeavenOh. My.
God, it hurts like heaven;
Longing for all your affection,
Every bit of your attention,
You're a divine intervention.
In this life that's turned to hell.
I can't help it when I reminisce,
In moments that are just like this,
I remember when we had our kiss,
And now how much I really miss,
The times when we weren't separated,
Were the best memories that I've created,
To reunite is long awaited,
I feel like I'm incarcerated,
In my own personal hell.
I can't help it when I think of you...
I hope one day we'll say "I do."
But for now I have to struggle through,
Until the day I get to you...
It won't be long, lov
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