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HauntedI hear this haunted voice; it whispers lies
It keeps me up at night; it plays my fears
Allowing no sleep for these tired eyes
Telling me things that I don't want to hear

Am I really heartless or am I numb?
Is this simply darkness of am I blind?
Try to claw my way back into the sun
Leave a bloody trail for others to find

Following the sound of a lonely heart
Brought only false hope that I might be freed
I was led astray in the howling dark
The one way out is through the blood I bleed

I've given up hope of living in peace
I only wish now that my heart would cease

HurricaneI don't really know
How all of this came to be
When I already know
She can do better than me

I feel like she's the desert
And whenever I hold her hand
I realize that makes me
Nothing more than a grain of sand

I can't help but ask myself
How is it that she's with me?
I'm just a mess when I'm alone
And I'm fucking up constantly

She's amazing...
In every way, shape, and form
Like the calm of the night
Or like the eye of a storm

(And if that storm were to break...)

I always have the thought
That if people were rain
l would be just a drop
And she'd be the hurricane...

Document 5Every day I wake up is like a painful memory
One that never goes away not even if I make believe
Every night I make it through only makes the hurt worse
Every second is my suffering, every breath I take, the curse

I've wasted all these moments trying so hard to pretend
That there's something still inside me that allows my heart to mend
It's like the air I breathe attempts at suffocating me
Until I collapse onto the the ground and my chest gives one last heave

And I try so hard to be, beyond the shadow of a doubt
The person there beside you that you can't live without
I know I'm nothing more than the dirt beneath my feet
But that do

Savior.I have this darkness deep inside me,
It's what influenced this writing.
I can't control it, I can't fight it,
Barely know it, and can't hide it.

I'm just a mess with no ambition;
So much less than I envisioned.
How much more can I endure?
I don't know, I'm not too sure...

I'm not myself when I'm alone,
And yet I find I'm on my own.
I'm like a lock without a key,
There is no perfect fit for me!...

You're not alone.
Don't think like that.
Pick your head up.
I believe in you.
You can do it.
I love you...

Are you here to prove me wrong?
To make me see the brighter dawn?
With this darker side, this part of me,
How can you love

On LoveLove not forever
Love for an eternity
Because it's longer

A Tragic TaleI sit here and listen to the chattering birds
The sweetest sound that my ears ever heard
The sun has risen to cast off nights veil
It's days like this that remind me of my tale
Heart-breaking in nature, I'll relate it to you
This tale is of tragedy, and yes, it is true

There once was a man as happy could be
He'd sing and he'd laugh most cheerfully
He was strong, he was steady and smart
He had but one woman who lay claim to his heart
To him the most beloved person, his wife
She was his everything, his meaning to life
Seemingly from nowhere, his lover fell ill
And felt deaths hand, a breath-taking chill
And try as he might he coul

Part Mirage, Part NightmareI try to fight, the feelings I, hide inside
And the piosonus thoughts they bring
But darling, they're all that's left
They're all of you, that I've kept
You're still all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, that I believe

But when you're gone
My heart threatens to collapse
Because it's broken in two
And it's missing its other half

Please don't leave, please stay with me...
I can't breathe...
I'm on the edge of insanity...

Part mirage, part nightmare...
Please come back!
I just need to know you're there...

For me...

I know that I've, said I'm fine
That everything, is alright
But darling, I miss the feeling
Of your

If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine

Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears

Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home

I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes

Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…

Stuck In A TragedyI'm not that one in a million or a diamond in the rough;
I've never thought myself as even being just enough...
I often find myself asking me why I'm here;
The answer always comes in the form of a falling tear...

The sunset streaks behind walls of concrete.
Daylight dies like the fire inside of me...
Time is slipping by as the sky line begins to darken,
While I'm left standing here trying to be forgotten...

My whole life's,
Been stuck in a tragedy!
Not once do I remember being happy with me!

I scream,
Violently to the heavens!
But all that I hear,
Are the echoes of all my questions!

I can feel my own despair as it thickens the

Something More...You stole every one of my dreams and left me all on my own!
But you can't take all this pain 'cause it's all that I've ever known!
If only I could've noticed that you were changing long before!
Maybe it's just me but I thought we were something more!

I thought you'd be the one that would actually fucking care!
And even though you said you'd be, you're still not even there!
I've always felt like I was living without a purpose!
Thanks for being the one to help confirm that I'm worthless!

Losing you is the worst pain that I could endure!
Please show some kind of mercy 'cause I can't take it anymore!
How many more times can you pick me

Waking UpI wake up again in the middle of the night
Cold sweat dripping I don't know if I'm alright
Cause it's the millionth time
That I've dreamt you were mine

But now I see
It's only me
With no one else
I'm by myself...

I can hear my heartbeat echo off these walls
As I wander aimlessly through these desolate halls
I keep thinking that I'm hearing your desperate call
But that's just me pretending trying so hard not to fall

I listen to the wind as it whispers by me
But the words that it speaks aren't registering
I listen to the rain as it pours to the ground
I'm looking for you but you're nowhere around

I really fucking hate being alon

Optimistically PessimisticThere's broken
Then there's shattered to the core
There's saying I don't care
Or I don't love you anymore

There's hopeless
And theres frustratingly out of reach
There are lessons left to learn
But those lessons they'll never teach

There are promises
Then there are hollow and empty lies
There are moments that you treasure
And moments you want to die

There's lonliness
And there's tired of going on
There is waiting for forever
But forever will never come...

The Secrets These Walls Hold - DarkShutter the light and let the darkness prevail.
If no one can see then who will know that I failed?
I swear I really tried and that I gave it my all;
I'm painfully aware of every one of my flaws...

I simply lay awake unsure if it's night or day,
Covered and consumed by the weight of this crushing darkness.
I hide from my mistakes and I hope that they'll go away,
Believing myself when I say that I'm really heartless...

Now more than ever I need to feel like I did before;
Like a million white roses missing none of their thorns.
You were the only reason I had left to be saved,
To fill the hole in my heart that was becoming my grave...

The MaskThe Mask that Hides the pain
the depth within oneself
to hold it altogether
pretending that everything is Okay

The mask is the fake
the hurt on the inside
that No one will know
it hides all the pain deep inside

This mask that shows no mercy
no pain, no torment
It hides the fake
of the one that is truly in pain

Cause this Mask
is the perfect reflection
a perfect resemblance
of how one feels
about a life that is lost

This Mask is the perfect treasure
hiding behind it
to show no Pain
deep down in this Cruel world

Lonely NightAnother Lonely Night
beneath this darkness I hide
the depression takes over control...
while I start to fade...

The anxiety starts to act up...
as my mind thinks heavy thoughts..
wish this pain would go away
wish everything was different....

My body reacts badly
this pain is so deep
wish the thoughts would vanish
I wish my life turned out differently

Another lonely night
is all that it takes...
a mind that takes control...
of the thoughts that are deep inside

The urge for pain
the urge to react
my mind takes over control...
on this Lonely night I live

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After ThoughtsTell me...

Was I worth
Your broken heart?

Don't pretend like
You're not falling apart...

Now I'll watch you burn
And await my turn

Cause I

I can't live like this
Did this love exist
There's so much that I missed
We should have never kissed

Tell me...

Was I worth
Your tortured thoughts?

And all the pain
That I know I brought..?

You've burned to just ashes
And now I've run out of matches

But I

I can't live on like this
Did this love even exist
There's just too much I missed
Should we have never kissed

Tell these...

Scars on my wrist
That there's no need to worry
That there's still something to us
And these memories a

If OnlyIsn't it crazy
How she doesn't
Have to say a word
But you can hear her
Whispering "Save me"

It's written in her eyes
A desperate plea, a silent cry
It's behind her faded disguise
That smiles and lies
As she tries to live a normal life

But pain never fades away
And neither do tears that have dried
Or blood that has spilled
Nor words that were lies
The mental distress
And the torment inside

Things will never be the same
And two can't play at this
Because this isn't a game
And who is to blame
She needs a face to go with the name
Somebody else has to suffer her shame

She can't handle this alone
She needs someone now
And if

Quickly We ForgetShe writes a letter to her soldier
Who only wishes that he could hold her
In his arms
But he can't, he puts himself in harms way
Everyday, it's all the same
While she's over here hoping and praying
She'll keep recieving the letters saying

It's just another day away from home
Trust me, I'm doing fine on my own
It's you I'm worried for
Don't cry it's just one more
Day
Away, from home

And not to mention he's a father
Who had to tell his two year old daughter
That he's got to go away
To make the world a better place
In the land where the pain originates
Is this fair
Is this fate
You'd better hope that he comes back
For your s

In Red InkI've given you everything
I brought you up from the mud
But you're still never satisfied
What do you want from me, blood?

I've never held back on you
I always told you what's what
So how else can I appease you
What do you want from me, blood?

I've only once ever lied to you
And that ended up with your tears in a flood
I've tried to apologize
What do you want from me, blood?

You say it's forgiven
But I can't believe that because
I can't forgive myself
And so I offer my blood.

What Am I?I don't want to see this deception
This is somebody else
This isn't my own reflection
Though I stand by myself

What I see isn't me
At least that's what I believe
Cause I cannot perceive
All these demons in me

Eyes so blood shot
With black flecks
My heart stops
It infects

Is this what I used to be
Was this once a part of me
I just cannot believe
That this demon is me

It rejects
And it spreads
Yes I've bled
From words that
That you've said

Why did I dig up the pieces
That were buried so deep
Now everybody can see this
This demon that's me

It's haunting
And scarring
It's taunting
And barring

I can't hide anymore
The

A Reason to BreatheIf there's one thing
I don't need
It must be this feeling
That's building inside me
Corrodes and deprives me
Of all things I'm needing
My god, I'm still bleeding
Just barely still breathing

What do you mean
When you say that It seems

Like I only love you,
Cause you can inhale
I promised her once,
And guess what, I failed
Yes, your words hurt
But I know I deserve this
And every single scar
Thats been laid upon my wrist

Why can't you just let it be
You mean so much to me

Yes, I said that I loved her
I said that I'd hold her
It's hard to say goodbye
Cause I know that it's over
But you were always there
In the back of my

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'Goodbye' Isn't Always...

by ~Invoking, Oct 19, 2012, 7:24:44 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

You don't know my secret pain
The pain I hide from every day
Every smile fades away
Etched in every word I say
But to you I seem okay

Well, that's just on the surface
Nothing about me is perfect
It's safe to say that I'm worthless
I've got no plan nor a purpose

And I can't begin to explain how it feels to be ignored
By the ones you love, by the ones that you care for
It hurts more than you could ever imagine
And I'm not having this anymore

You burrow under my skin when you assume that I'm okay
That I've never had to deal with any sort of real pain
I've been through more than you could ever forget
This experience alone is solely my one regret

I don't know if you've noticed but I've had it up to here
There is just one more thing I want to make perfectly clear

This is not something I ever wanted do
But you're forcing my hand; it's something I have to
Just please, promise to remember my goodbye
Is more than just that, it's much more than what you knew
It's just a painful way for me to say
That
I love you…

'Goodbye' Isn't Always...by ~Invoking

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

...just a 'goodbye'.

~menotmyselfori Nov 2, 2012

*gives hug*
Beautifully sad piece... amazing job!

~Kill3For3me Oct 19, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I love the emotion you put into it. My favorite stanza would have to be the beginning, very nice. I also like how smoothly your words flow. A beautiful piece.

~Invoking Oct 19, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you very much

That really means a lot to me.

~Kill3For3me Oct 19, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

my pleasure!

~xxDeadMeow3xx Oct 19, 2012 Writer

Thats really good

~Invoking Oct 19, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Thank you

I am glad you like it <3

~xxDeadMeow3xx Oct 20, 2012 Writer

No problem c:

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