Savior.I have this darkness deep inside me,
It's what influenced this writing.
I can't control it, I can't fight it,
Barely know it, and can't hide it.

I'm just a mess with no ambition;
So much less than I envisioned.
How much more can I endure?
I don't know, I'm not too sure...

I'm not myself when I'm alone,
And yet I find I'm on my own.
I'm like a lock without a key,
There is no perfect fit for me!...

You're not alone.
Don't think like that.
Pick your head up.
I believe in you.
You can do it.
I love you...

Are you here to prove me wrong?
To make me see the brighter dawn?
With this darker side, this part of me,
How can you love

Since You've Been GoneYou take my hand and you whisper to me,
"Darling, I love you and I promise I'll never leave..."
I look to you and without missing a single beat,
I say, "You were my missing piece, now I'm finally complete."

An involuntary smile spreads out across your lips,
And I can't help but smile as I lean in to taste your kiss...
Then the frame stops and it's stuck on this same scene;
My nights have been so haunted with the recurrence of this dream.

I always hope that I'll wake up and this dream will become true,
But I'm so tired of only dreaming...
Darling, I miss you...

[Chorus]
And since you've been gone I've been wasting away,
Just tryin

HurricaneI don't really know
How all of this came to be
When I already know
She can do better than me

I feel like she's the desert
And whenever I hold her hand
I realize that makes me
Nothing more than a grain of sand

I can't help but ask myself
How is it that she's with me?
I'm just a mess when I'm alone
And I'm fucking up constantly

She's amazing...
In every way, shape, and form
Like the calm of the night
Or like the eye of a storm

(And if that storm were to break...)

I always have the thought
That if people were rain
l would be just a drop
And she'd be the hurricane...

Pain, Hurt, Misery, AngerPain?

Being the 'best-friend' to the love of your life
But pretending to be okay with it even though every night
You end up in the same spot on your bed, tears already in your eyes
You cry yourself to sleep because you were to scared to try
To do something bold for once in your life
Like, I don't know, maybe just tell her you love her
Or tell him that you love him
That you long to feel their touch against your skin
And to feel their lips pressed to yours in a smile as you kiss

Hurt?

Watching the person you've loved for so long love somebody else
Because you were still too shy to speak up or to even say hi
As they passed you by ye

Painful MemoryWhy are you scared?
It's like you don't know where you are.
You take it step by step but never get very far.
Look at these scars!
How dare you say that they're worthless?!
Keep your opinions to yourself...
And stop pretending you're fucking perfect!

Oh!

Like the words I never spoke;
Like this dying flame of hope;
Like this web of lies we weaved;
That we both thought we believed...

You're nothing more to me,
Than a painful memory...

It must be hard!
Keeping up with all of your lies,
That you hide the truth behind as you're waiting for it to die!
Look in my eyes!
How dare you say I'm without a purpose?!
Just look at all thes

Part Mirage, Part NightmareI try to fight, the feelings I, hide inside
And the piosonus thoughts they bring
But darling, they're all that's left
They're all of you, that I've kept
You're still all I want, you're all I need
You're everything, that I believe

But when you're gone
My heart threatens to collapse
Because it's broken in two
And it's missing its other half

Please don't leave, please stay with me...
I can't breathe...
I'm on the edge of insanity...

Part mirage, part nightmare...
Please come back!
I just need to know you're there...

For me...

I know that I've, said I'm fine
That everything, is alright
But darling, I miss the feeling
Of your

Soon EnoughI know things have been kind of rough
Though I've put forth my best
It's just never enough
And I'm sorry...

To me, things have felt so unreal
I can't believe you've stolen my heart
But I love the way that you make me feel
And it kills me that we're so far apart

I wish more than anything that you could be here
To kiss all my scars and wipe all of these tears
And I'm sorry I can't be much more
You know I'm a mess, and I've told you before
That still I promise I'll forever be yours...

I'll be there with you soon enough
You're all that I've needed
And you're all I think of
So don't worry...

To me, this all happened so fast
It's

Hurts Like HeavenOh. My.
God, it hurts like heaven;
Longing for all your affection,
Every bit of your attention,
You're a divine intervention.
In this life that's turned to hell.

I can't help it when I reminisce,
In moments that are just like this,
I remember when we had our kiss,
And now how much I really miss,
You...

The times when we weren't separated,
Were the best memories that I've created,
To reunite is long awaited,
I feel like I'm incarcerated,
In my own personal hell.

I can't help it when I think of you...
I hope one day we'll say "I do."
But for now I have to struggle through,
Until the day I get to you...

It won't be long, lov

Please Come Home...I've not grown used to this...
I'm not used to being alone...
And I've had enough of it...
For too long I've been without you...

I have so much to say...
Will I ever get the chance...?
I long for our forever...
To stay lost in our romance...

And I've not grown used to this!
I'm not used to being alone!
I miss our everything!
(Darling!!)
Won't you please, come
Home?

I miss our everything...
The warmth of your embrace...
The way you'd hold me...
The way you made me feel safe...

I long to feel you once more...
And taste the sweet of your kiss...
I want how it was just before...
We were seperated like this...

Cause I'll not

Nicht Ohne Sie....I don't know how to start this...

Just knowing that you're leaving casts my heart into darker shadows
Love has always been, for me, an uphill struggle and losing battles
It's like a book without an ending, you took my heart out of it's cage
And I don't want to put it back cause I don't want to turn this page...

If I could find me a miracle that could write us another chapter
I wouldn't hesitate a second cause I want this forever after
But life isn't a happy ending, there's not always light after dark
The only thing that breaks the silence is the sound of my breaking heart

This life will never be the same, without you here beside m

If Ever I Lost YouWhat weighs on your mind?
What's taking up your time?
You tell me not to worry and you swear you're really fine

Please open up to me
Tell me of your fears
You know I'll kiss the scars and I'll wipe away your tears

Don't keep it to yourself
You know you're not alone
I couldn't live my life without you ever coming home

I'd be so lost inside
I wouldn't recognize
The person that I see in the reflection of your eyes

Just tell me you're okay, and that you love me too
I don't know what I'd do
If ever I lost you…

DrowningI slowly dip my toes
And test the flowing water,
Little did I know
My heart was up for slaughter.

Rushing in,
It coats my skin,
I feel the pressure on my chest.
A hug to take the life from me,
Now I know it's for the best.

Come through my mouth
And wash my soul
No one ever has to know.
A longing that I feel so strong,
A longing that should feel so wrong.

On LoveLove not forever
Love for an eternity
Because it's longer

'Goodbye' Isn't Always...You don't know my secret pain
The pain I hide from every day
Every smile fades away
Etched in every word I say
But to you I seem okay

Well, that's just on the surface
Nothing about me is perfect
It's safe to say that I'm worthless
I've got no plan nor a purpose

And I can't begin to explain how it feels to be ignored
By the ones you love, by the ones that you care for
It hurts more than you could ever imagine
And I'm not having this anymore

You burrow under my skin when you assume that I'm okay
That I've never had to deal with any sort of real pain
I've been through more than you could ever forget
This experience alone is solel

The Secrets These Walls Hold - DarkShutter the light and let the darkness prevail.
If no one can see then who will know that I failed?
I swear I really tried and that I gave it my all;
I'm painfully aware of every one of my flaws...

I simply lay awake unsure if it's night or day,
Covered and consumed by the weight of this crushing darkness.
I hide from my mistakes and I hope that they'll go away,
Believing myself when I say that I'm really heartless...

Now more than ever I need to feel like I did before;
Like a million white roses missing none of their thorns.
You were the only reason I had left to be saved,
To fill the hole in my heart that was becoming my grave...

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To Be NumbI gaze through the glass
To the last rays of light
And the long shadows cast
As dusk turns into night

Hands cling to the chain link
Still struggle to stand
I know what you may think
And I know what I am

A broken man
Still stealing these breaths
Because I can

I tried to hold on
If not but for your sake
But you walked away
Left my heart here to ache

Now it just
Reluctantly beats
It's this feeling inside me
And my heart is its keep

It's a feeling that
Is known only to some
Not everyone knows
What it's like to be numb...

Somebody Lie To MeNobody tries to be
The one who is there
Somebody lie to me
And tell me you care

Make me believe
That I'm not on my own
Feed me deceit
Please don't leave me alone

But I
Know you
Say these things even though we know
They aren't
True

Somebody lie to me
And tell me I'm fine
Nobody tries to be
The one I'd call mine

Fed me deceit
But I believed every word
Made me believe
That you're really my world

(Make me believe...)
(Somebody's lied to me...)

(Fed me your deceit...)
(Nobody tries to be...)

Will You Be There In The Morning?I can keep on waiting
Only for you
(Please come home...)

I hate never knowing
If you'll be there
(In the morning...)

Tell me goodnight...
Say I love you, sleep tight...
And I will hold you all night...
So close those beautiful eyes...

(Those beautiful eyes...)

I'm still wide awake...
Hear every breath that you take...
Holding the heart that you gave...
That I will never break...

(I Will never break...)

These days are taking so long...
And this feeling keeps forming...
(Inside of my chest...)

I know that we're still going strong...
But will you be there in the morning..?
(Just like you promised..?)

I can keep on waiting

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Cowards Way Out

by ~Invoking, Jun 15, 2012, 5:59:57 AM
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Did you really think,
That taking the cowards way out,
Would prove anything,
Except all of our worst fears?

Did you even think,
About the ones that you have now?
And the pain that you'd bring,
If you were to leave them all here...?

Do you really think,
You're life is just so horribly unbearable,
That you need to take this knife,
And do something you know is terrible?!

How many times,
Have I told you it isn't worth it?
How selfish of you,
To expect your life to be picture perfect.

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~infernus8sit4amet6 Jul 24, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I can somewhat agree with your point of view, this is a great piece, but i dont think this would help a suicidal personat all if not make it a bit worse, thats coming from experiance, I have attempted it before and seriosly thought about it recently. I still like this, its avery good piece of work.

~spoonthesockmonkey Jun 15, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

i disagree with your point of veiw, but still think its a great piece

~Invoking Jun 15, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I can respect that, and thank you very much for your honesty <3

~spoonthesockmonkey Jun 16, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

of course, thank you for sharing your work

~LemonumNade Jun 15, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

I don't think that this would help anyone who is contemplating suicide. The feel I get from this is that someone is speaking into a situation where they do not have full knowledge. What people who are close to suicide really need is someone to make them feel that they are worth life. Calling someone selfish for struggling so much with life that they would even think of ending it is not fair to that person, it would (most likely) cause them to feel worse. This keeps making me think of someone who wants to help but really doesn't know the best way.

~infernus8sit4amet6 Jul 24, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

These are my thoughts exactly.

~Invoking Jun 15, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

It isn't fair for the person to even think about ending their life without trying to find proper help first. It isn't fair that they feel that way in the first place. It's not fair to anybody.Life just isn't fair. So in a way, it is selfish of them. Everybody walks through hell at one point or another. If they're not brave enough to face their problems or issues head on, and they resort to this tragic course of action, then yes. That alone justifies this piece. Now, please, I do not mean to come off as harsh or anything, I'm very thankful for your honest opinion on my work <3 much appreciated, my good person.

~Jackie0527 Jun 19, 2012

I agree with you. Life is unfair and your piece speaks truth. Suicide is just the easy, dumb, and selfish way out of a problem. Nothing in life is easy. We can't just give up. I have depression and I have had thoughts of suicide many times before, but I never once tried to commit suicide because, in my opinion, only the cowards, stupid, and selfish people try it. I am not a coward, stupid, nor selfish. I am smart, fearless, and I love my friends and family. If I were to write a piece on suicide, it would sound a lot like Invoking 's piece. This is from the POV of a person with depression that will never give up and will face whatever life throws at her.

~Invoking Jun 20, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I'm sorry to hear you've felt as such before, or perhaps still do. One can never truly put those feelings away... I am glad you have the same view as me, as you appear to be one of few. Thank you for your support, my good person, and I wish you the best of luck <3

~LemonumNade Jun 15, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

I appreciate how much thought you appear to put into each response, and although I disagree with the message, I understand your point and respect it.

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