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Home To Me by Invoking, literature

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Home To Me

Familiar feelings begin to swell All the anger and the sadness I have come to know so well When I listen closely all I hear are my own screams I'm choking on the dust of all my long lost buried dreams I recognize these walls but they feel empty and lonely This place feels like a graveyard but it used to be home to me A broken heart's a sharper pain than broken glass on skin The only thing that feels as real as the scars I keep within I recognize these eyes but they feel empty and lonely I don't recognize myself because you used to be home to me What did I ever do to deserve your wrath? I couldn't piece myself together, couldn't follow your

Breath In, Breath Out by Invoking, literature

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Breath In, Breath Out

I fill my lungs with wasted breath Inhale my words till there's no more left All I do is hurt; hell, I almost killed you I would say I'm sorry but words just aren't enough I'm one exhale away from destroying what I love These lungs are burning for relief; hell, now they're killing me I know there's no force on earth that could ever change me I could pretend and I could lie, but then who would I be? I'd sooner suffocate than put her back in danger I held onto the words that could have saved her I regret most the words I didn't say I'm losing consciousness... I'm one exhale away...

N U M B by Invoking, literature

Fiction. by Invoking, literature

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Fiction.

Oh look! This books cover is torn and worn and tattered I guess that means the words written inside don't even matter Because the cover is the first and only thing that I saw I know everything about it, I don't need to read it all So you decide the book is bad before you ever crack the cover You think, “Judging books is pretty easy, judging people can't be tougher” Judging others by their scars is your life threatening addiction It's my life, it's my story, not your favorite work of fiction... There's a whole person here that you sum up with a glance Instead of giving me this hell, why can't you just give me a chance?

Stream Of Consciousness. by Invoking, literature

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Stream Of Consciousness.

I feel like my whole life can be described as the right place at the wrong time. I try everyday to read between the lines, to find the right words so I can redefine myself. Each and every subtle sign I see is changing the person I thought I ought to be. Out of sight out of mind, yes, I am out of my mind and out of silver tongued white lies I disguise behind my sad eyes. These truths are the how's and why's of everyday I feel small and misguided, flawed but undivided. I claw madly at the dream that has fiendishly eluded me for years despite my frustrations and brown-eyed tears. So what if I'm a little bit unorthodox? My life will not be

Never Again. by Invoking, literature

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Never Again.

No matter how many breaths I take I just can’t breathe Even though I’m missing you, you’re not missing me Vainly cry a thousand tears; they won’t change a thing Either pull myself together or just pull up my sleeves Reach for the only friend I have who will never leave Arguing with emotions I keep locked away within Giving in as they surge against my fraying nerve Against my will, against my mind, against my separated skin I only cut deep enough to feel the scream inside Never deep enough to bleed, never deep enough to die

Hate Myself. by Invoking, literature

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Hate Myself.

Did you know that you’re the reason my heart’s under lock and key? Because I’m terrified of losing another part of me. You’re the only person that I ever let inside. I never thought you’d steal my heart then hang me out to dry. I’m not someone you love, I’m just someone you forgot I remember back when I was someone worth a second thought I don’t know what to say or what I should believe Did I push you away, or did you choose to leave? We’re no good for each other but my heart still beats your name We’ve not spoken in forever; I don’t know how much you’ve changed I want

Keeping You Off My Mind. by Invoking, literature

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Keeping You Off My Mind.

There's only so much I can put myself through Before I find my breaking point I don't want to die, but if you asked me to I can only push myself so far Without frustration setting in I'm so sick of these old scars And how you crawl beneath my skin You're in my heart, you're in my blood You're every feeling like a flash flood I'm not strong enough to let you go But still too weak to make you stay I'd sooner die than let this be And watch you as you fade away There's only so much I can put myself through To keep my mind well away from you

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Home To Me by Invoking, literature

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Home To Me

Breath In, Breath Out by Invoking, literature

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Breath In, Breath Out

N U M B by Invoking, literature

Fiction. by Invoking, literature

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Fiction.

Stream Of Consciousness. by Invoking, literature

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Stream Of Consciousness.

Never Again. by Invoking, literature

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Never Again.

Hate Myself. by Invoking, literature

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Hate Myself.

Keeping You Off My Mind. by Invoking, literature

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Keeping You Off My Mind.

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I, the wizard of randomisms. by tirasunil, literature

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I, the wizard of randomisms.

The castle of the dead is a beautiful and burning thing of scars left unsigned: regret is a blank page and innocence is bliss, but take no one's word for it - bullets of abstraction are interrupting the fall of symphonies of dreams (telephones and cortisone, antiseptic and postage stamps, a spell caster's practice) - a cat fest bone deep, stenciled smiles on paper hearts, death in the rain. So, I demand that you live for me, my manic pixie dream, on an autumn night with thoughts of dying: think of me when you're out there, my sehnsucht, my scintillae, until you stop growing old.

DeviantART Compliments #154 by dACompliments, journal

DeviantART Compliments #154

Jan 23, 2016

More compliments sent in by wonderful members of the community! ~flyingheartsplz (https://www.deviantart.com/flyingheartsplz) :icondacompliments: :iconflyingheartsplz: :+fav: Please consider faving this journal to help bring more exposure to the dA Compliments project. ---------------- Dear ivyfire9 (https://www.deviantart.com/ivyfire9) you have helped me in so many ways. Not only by inspiring me, but by also staying by my side through these tough times like a true friend. :) -Love LendgendOfKorraFan (https://www.deviantart.com/lendgendofkorrafan) ---------------- To Invoking (https://www.deviantart.com/invoking) - We know that this must be such a hard time for you right now, we just wanted you to know that we care and we're here for you if there's anything we can do. Hang in there, Voki. Thin

In Tears by LastoftheWolves, journal

In Tears

Mar 27, 2015

My, is it such a strange feeling to weep with joy. Let alone over someone you love. By merely listening to the song you two have claimed as yours, or by even seeing a picture of his face, you break down into tears because you feel so blessed, privileged, joyous that you get to know such a wonder as him, let alone call him yours. When you can't wipe the smile off your face as you swipe the tears from your cheeks at someone as beautiful, sweet, protective, kind, and loving as he. To not only feel strange for being treated right and shown off, but to be treated, by someone who's got so many others, that you belong in their life just as much as a

Birthday Boy by SilverInkblot, journal

Birthday Boy

Mar 22, 2015

Personal Today was Russ' birthday. 4 years old :la: I think all but two of his gifts were Thomas the Tank Engine related :lol: That's his thing now; it used to switch between monster trucks and trains, and now it's all about Thomas. This photo was from a couple days before, but it's so cute I wanted to share :heart: The lady at the bakery gives him free cherries when he comes in, so that's what he's eating. The dandelion in his hand is there because the neighbor's yard is full of them and we taught him how to blow the seeds off. This is from earlier that same day, when I took him to throw rocks in the river, which is one of his other favo

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About Invoking

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Artist // Hobbyist // Literature

Feb 15
United States
Deviant for 12 years
www.youtube.com/user/invokiing
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Hi! My name is Ryan, but you can call me Voki. I'm a 22 year old guy who also exists! I like good things like pizza and cats, and dislike bad things like not texting back for an hour even though we were JUST replied to my last message and, like, .murder, or whatever. I'm, uh, I'm going to go and make streams and do videos. Feel free to stay for a while or move along to your next video, I'm sure we'll meet again someday. Thanks for stopping by!

Favourite Movies

Boondock Saints, Balto, The fox and the hound...

Favourite TV Shows

It's Always Sunny In Philidelphia, The Last Man On Earth, Brooklyn 99

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Hollywood Undead, BMTH, Skillet, RED, Eyes Set To Kill, Three Days Grace, Linkin Park, Breaking Benjamin...

Favourite Books

I need a new favorite book.

Favourite Games

Halo.

Favourite Gaming Platform

Xbox One

Tools of the Trade

Pen, paper, computer...my mind...experiences..

Other Interests

Pegacorns. And Pugacorns. Sometimes just corn.

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benpva16

Feb 15, 2018

Happy birthday, Voki, hope it's a good one

tirasunil

Apr 24, 2017

Thanks for the fav! Good to see you're active again.

Invoking

Apr 25, 2017

I always check back every now and then.

tirasunil

Apr 25, 2017

I've missed Blood Ties, what happened to that? Or did I just miss something?

Invoking

Apr 30, 2017

It's still something I work on to this day, I just don't post anymore because there is a lot I'm not sure about. I love Blood Ties, but the concept was too grand for me at the time. I've been world building and character building (my own characters, of course, not the submitted ones from all the awesome people who did submit a character). I just have had a lot on my plate these last few years. I really hope to get back to writing and posting more consistently some time in the near future when things will (hopefully) start evening out for me.

I'm glad you still think about Blood Ties; that's actually very encouraging! Thank you

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Larathain

Feb 15, 2017

Happy birthday! May it be a day of perfect weather and joyful bliss! One you'll enjoy to often offer reminisce.

FairyGuardian23

Oct 18, 2016

Hey, just wanted to drop by and say that while I haven't read everything, the poems I have read are very beautiful and real. I appreciate you sharing them

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