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August 12th, 2012

Journal Entry: Tue Oct 21, 2014, 11:28 AM


The following is an excerpt of an entry I wrote dated August 12th, 2012


"I repress a lot of things that could destroy me. There's a complacent pool of angry emotions stirring inside me, but I keep them at bay with forced laughter and faked smiles. I've told myself time and time again that the smiles are real and the laughter is genuine and that I am really happy, but... I think I've only entered a new level of either denial or depression. I've lived so long with a mask on that I've nearly forgotten completely the person behind it. I don't know who I once was. I don't even know who I am now. I'm not the same, but I feel no different.

I have difficulty expressing myself verbally. Writing is the only way I know how to placate the negative emotions that gnaw at me day and night. The only problem is that I don't know who to show the writing to, and I'm too scared to find out. What if they just think I'm messed up and can't be helped? What if they don't want to be burdened with my pitiful self? It'd be wrong of me to unwittingly force somebody into caring for me by imposing my problems, my fears, insecurities, my demons, onto them. That would only be pity from them. Not caring. And I just want to scream because that's all I want. But to seek it out is to beg. I must wait for somebody to notice me. To notice the pain. The suffering. The scars.

Things would've been much different had I not used the razors edge to such a nefarious end. But that's just it; things aren't different. They're the same as they always were, and how they always were meant to be.

Whether I can accept it or not, that's the big question."




Things change.




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