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Journal Entry: Sun Mar 29, 2015, 11:24 PM




Should've included this in the video, probably.


I've been thinking a lot about how I found Cry since ImitationTeal asked me how I discovered him. Yeah, I was going through probably one of the hardest points in my life.

My mother had just been diagnosed with a benign brain tumor, meaning that it wasn't cancerous. However, it was causing her brain to swell and was messing with her motor functions.

I had only just gotten home from school when the news was delivered to me by my step-father. He told me mother was ill and that there was a tumor the size of a tennis ball in her head, that might kill her. He said that it was my fault she had this tumor. He said it was because I was bad.

A young and terrified me ran to my bedroom. I lay on my bed crying for what could've been days but was only minutes. I opened up my laptop to listen to music to try to calm down.

I couldn't. The things I normally did to calm myself weren't working. I tried music, I tried listening to the sound of rain, I tried writing but the words all came out blaming me for my mothers illness.

Finally, I just googled it. I googled how to stop crying when you can't. Somehow... somehow one of Cry's videos popped up in the search results. I didn't know what it was. I didn't know who he was. But I clicked on it.

And it worked.

It distracted me from the hell that was forming around me. It distracted me from the self hatred, the self harm, the everything.

Whenever the depression would hit too strong, I'd watch another one of his videos.

Eventually I found my own strength. Through Cry, I realized I need to own myself and not let somebody tell me who to be or how to feel.

Cry is my idol, and he is the kind of person that I aspire to be.

If there is one thing I want to say to him, it's this:

Thank you, Cry.




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