Where do we go from here?
Plumb - Cut
N U M BNothing hurts the way it shouldN U M B by Invoking
Until I realize all the reasons
My heart is whole
But I'm in pieces
Fiction.Oh look! This books cover is torn and worn and tatteredFiction. by Invoking
I guess that means the words written inside don't even matter
Because the cover is the first and only thing that I saw
I know everything about it, I don't need to read it all
So you decide the book is bad before you ever crack the cover
You think, “Judging books is pretty easy, judging people can't be tougher”
Judging others by their scars is your life threatening addiction
It's my life, it's my story, not your favorite work of fiction...
There's a whole person here that you sum up with a glance
Instead of giving me this hell, why can't you just give me a chance?
Stream Of Consciousness.I feel like my whole life can be described as the right place at the wrong time.Stream Of Consciousness. by Invoking
I try everyday to read between the lines, to find the right words so I can redefine myself.
Each and every subtle sign I see is changing the person I thought I ought to be.
Out of sight out of mind, yes, I am out of my mind and out of silver tongued white lies I disguise behind my sad eyes.
These truths are the how's and why's of everyday I feel small and misguided, flawed but undivided.
I claw madly at the dream that has fiendishly eluded me for years despite my frustrations and brown-eyed tears.
So what if I'm a little bit unorthodox?
My life will not be ruled by the hands of one too many clocks and the tick-tock of life seeping away.
Every day is a threat to what little sanity remains.
My bleeding heart pains me; it overflows and stains my hands, the very hands I used to cut it open.
I was searching, looking for something whole and unbroken but that's the greatest lie of this day and age:
Never Again.No matter how many breaths I take I just can’t breatheNever Again. by Invoking
Even though I’m missing you, you’re not missing me
Vainly cry a thousand tears; they won’t change a thing
Either pull myself together or just pull up my sleeves
Reach for the only friend I have who will never leave
Arguing with emotions I keep locked away within
Giving in as they surge against my fraying nerve
Against my will, against my mind, against my separated skin
I only cut deep enough to feel the scream inside
Never deep enough to bleed, never deep enough to die
Hate Myself.Did you know that you’re the reason my heart’s under lock and key?Hate Myself. by Invoking
Because I’m terrified of losing another part of me.
You’re the only person that I ever let inside.
I never thought you’d steal my heart then hang me out to dry.
I’m not someone you love, I’m just someone you forgot
I remember back when I was someone worth a second thought
I don’t know what to say or what I should believe
Did I push you away, or did you choose to leave?
We’re no good for each other but my heart still beats your name
We’ve not spoken in forever; I don’t know how much you’ve changed
I want to hear your laugh again, I want to feel your touch
No, I can’t help it, but I miss you so damn much
Oh my god, what have I done? I let myself come back to this.
I thought I fought it off and won, but the scars are still across my wrist
You’re name is still there, scarred deep into my flesh
The letters burn as though the cuts are bleed
FailureFunny, life spirals downhillFailure by INKxSMILE
Amusing, thinking I'll get my daily fill
Intriguing, Maybe I should just swallow the pill
Look, I cant stop keeping my head down
Ups and donws? Yeah right let me try out my casket gown
Real empty, my heads a one way ghost town
Emptiness, hey, maybe thats the lesson to my lost cause.
How I came to dislike fanartEdit 2: For those that wonder why I closed comments. A death threat was the limit for me. http://damaimikaz.deviantart.com/journal/Speechless-383087330How I came to dislike fanart by DamaiMikaz
Edit: I've never expected such a massive response to this journal. But because it's gone all over the internet... I would like to settle a few things first... because I keep getting the same replies over and over again.
1. I made this journal as being my personal opinion. I'm not stating facts here. I'm just saying how I personally feel about drawing fanart. Please don't take this journal as a fact, because it isn't. It was never intended that way.
2. I don't expect you to agree with me. I don't mind either. I'd like you to reply why you think differently. Provide me with your insight and experiences. I'd love that.
3. I'm well aware that I can't change anything about most of these facts. I brought them up for discussion because I want to hear what other pe